i wanna shout out loud..

2007-06-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

Entries will be at my new livejournal acc for now. will decide which to use soon =)

www.hotwhirlwind.livejournal.com

2007-06-16T09:29:00.000+08:00

holidays now. study study study. that's all i've been doing like everyday, with occassional sessions of wii tennis,bowling..etc. but on the other hand, it seems like there is not enuff time. also the reason i'm starting my absence from blogger again.

attended new creation's church concert last night..with planetshakers!yea but 90% of the songs were like unknown to me. haha and new creation sang their own self-composed songs as well, not bad but still unknown to me. it was quite a new experience, quite different from the usual planetshakers conference. Pastor prince is a funny guy. haha

i created an LJ acc..used to read pple's blogs.haha! but it's more of a photo blog lah. in case my com crashes or something then at least i'll have some photos on the net.haha! lame shit. bye bye.

2007-05-08T21:12:00.000+08:00

Yay! SYF is finally over! hahha okay sounds quite bad lah. but i'm really quite glad its over, and we can now concentrate on our concert! Okay, choir got a GOLD lah. good? i would say yes. no more comments =)

Today didnt feel like 2 yrs ago when it was handbells syf. I didnt feel the excitement,no nervousness (if there's such a word). Yea, became a lil nervous when we were awaiting the results. Canphylia, fengling, adele and i were like watching soccer match and waiting for results to come out. and there were so many anti-climaxesss!! haha but we finally got the msg and screamed when we saw the word "GOLD".

I tried to relieve my pri school handbells SYF at vch when we were in the practice room b4 the actual performance. but i realized i cant rmb much. haha just that mr Fong loooked so handsome! hahaha

9th month approaching in exactly 2.5 hrs time!! love love love!

2007-05-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

okay blogging again.

lol took time off today to go watch soccer, church league. so cartoon lah. Oh wells, its like the stark contrast btw MJ soccer and JG soccer.hhaha okay i shant be so mean. meanie meanie meanie!

My boy played well, at least i thought so. haha like seriously. i've known for so more than a year, but i've only seen him play 2 proper matches, including this one. and the last one was like even b4 we got together. eons ago. it was fun,watching the guys run and run, trying hard to make it a friendly game. lol sadly, no "wags" there except williams gf. haha i love the MJ wags, so act WAG. hahaha! we love it.

Alrights, gotta go do my work to make up for the time lost, but it was worth it!!! seriously.

before the match

during the match.

after the match.

2007-05-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

I wonder if i shd close down this blog. Dont' really see the point of blogging nowadays, like what you said "it used to be the medium btw us". Hmm, would be quite mad if we still used it as a medium. haha

life has been rather hectic in school. Choir's syf is on tuesday, i wonder if things are really working out. sometimes i put in so much effort to teach these crazy pple but what do i get back in return? lousy attitudes, showing me their stupid faces that don't even give a single respect. You want my respect, then jolly well earn it, and its not gonna work with ur stupid face. no thanks to that, seriously. Worse still, my section is like singing quite badly, i dun even know why. Are we really that bad that he has to humiliate us in front of the whole choir (or maybe it seems that you just wanna pinpoint me). i just want everything to be over. get over SYF, get over the concert. I dun even know why i always i try to appear strong in front of the choir, voicing out opinions that pple like without really caring bout the feelings of the president or vice? who do u think you are elizabeth eng!!

enough about choir. i dun even wanna think about it anymore. 10 yrs down the road, i just wanna rmb the good stuff, like the crazy friends i met, the most fun wet games i played during choir camp. That's all i wanna rmb.

colosseum is coming up too. i've been throwing everything at dorea cos i got no time to do anything. Hais. hopefully i can start helping her soon! i feel so bad. but she's been great, always doing everything so well. although we cant blame the rain for always coming! so irritating. She and eth have been my very close friends since we suddenly got so crazy with each other, i cant rmb why. lol they always help to make my day.

Then there's my boy who's always tolerating my nonsense i dunno what i'll do without him. school has been so tormenting, he's my motivation to carry on, so that i, in turn, can push him in his work. haha so lame right. we're approaching our 9th mth soon. so fast so fast (:
we went back to the airport today, to study! Haha it felt totally like last year, the time we started our work, the time we ended. taking the same ruote to the viewing gallery after our work.everything felt really the same. sigh!

okay, i'm outta here. bye.

2007-01-31T17:23:00.000+08:00

Blogging has become such a not-so-usual thing to do alr. haha

Anywayy, last saturday was FANTASTICCC! becos i went for the s'pore vs m'sia match! WOOHOOooo!! super fun pls! exciting cos it was my first time at staduim for a soccer match..new experience okay. yayness! was there with ivan,dad and gordon. atmosphere was NICEE!

BUTTTT, dad doesnt allow me to go for the FINALS tonightt!!! wah feel like killing myself and gordon keep telling me his fren has an extra ticket. like that helps alot. =( so i'm going to be watching the match at home........hais. OH WELLL. at least i went ONCE. haha!

Moments of Love
It happens in the blink of an eye, whe time stands still,
when the heart flutters and sings a never-ending
Song of Love

i feel so blessed!

2007-01-20T09:42:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time..

Sometimes i wonder if a blog has more pros than cons. Well to a certain extent, this blog helped to send some "messages" across to some pple that i didnt have guts to talk to. But then, at the same time, sometimes it brought across the wrong message. Lol

Just some random thoughts there.

Haven exactly been in the mood to blog recently. There's really not much to talk about apart from life in school. haha hmm..apart from last night lah. Went to the airport for OG outing. Luckily Abby didnt pangseh me.......or else i think i would have cried even though Gordon was there too. Nvm. Dinner @ swensens was quite okay i guess. Ate too much side dish (calamari and fries..whoo) that i cldnt finish my baked rice. Oh well..gordon was happy to eat my leftovers =p

Last week was quite a tremendous week--spiritually, physically and mentally. But i really thank God for everyone who's been of help to me, one way or another. Of course, top on the list would be my parents who never failed to pray with me everyday during that week. Then there's the expressoul pple. Unty Ju, Joann, Allison, Lisa and GODMA (ireneee!). They were so sweet man. Brought my out on sunday to some highclass coffeehouse (like one prata for $9) for lunch just to cheer me up. Thank God for OLDER pple. And of course GORDON TOH for constantly trying to make me happy in school by doing everything retarded. i'm sry for making you worry.

Last night's trip to the airport brought back memories. Been quite some time since we went there together. Haha fond and retarded memories that will not be erased. =)

2007-01-02T12:51:00.000+08:00

Converse shoe (size 4)
Selling at $50.00 -- price negotiable
Worn only ONCE..near brand new
Call me if interested or drop a tag with ur number. (:

2006-12-30T11:12:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating regularly..especially since my parents went to Beijing and we were home alone!! OKay whatever. So it was like most of the time out. Hehehe

Didnt do much this week. Mostly finishing up hmwk and letting somebody copy me hmwk. TSK! So it was quite an uneventful week, apart from celebrating christmas eve OUT and christmas dinner at unty's place with the cousins!

Hmm actually that was pretty much the highlight of the week. Went back to school fo J1 registration, did the placards,banner and stuff. Yea other than that. OH yes, caught two movies this week. hehe first was The Holiday then Night at the Musuem. BOTH ROCKSSS!! lovely (:

Got this from Tanny's blog. she's so crap.

I bumped into Eliz with her boyfriend.
She looked so shocked.
She was desperately trying to hide her hands,which was holding his hands.. duh.
HAHA.The funny thing was,instead of looking at each other.
We were both busy staring at each other's partner.
( she at XY and I at her Bf )
HAHAHAHA.

Super nonsense. But true. HEehehe

Happy New Year's Eve Everyone!!!

2006-12-23T11:34:00.000+08:00

Youth camp "inside out" was awesome (; I think the young committee did a fantastic job! Even though there were a few hiccups, everything ran quite smoothly. Thank God for that. A few photos.

BAngrah & RnB

Lem and I with our fav pose (:

PA team

Our camp commandants @ the comm skit

Youths worshipping

Games comm. Spasm.

Last night was Christmas @ the Pines. It was fantastic, with everyone dressed up nicely. Okay except for me who was overdressed -_-"

But it was great seeing souls get saved and coming to know the Lord. AMEN!

Self-proclaimed God-parents

Expressoull gals

Lisa and I

2006-12-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

Off to youth camp tmrw! So quickly its the end of the year AGAIN. Why so fast?

Shopping with allison ytd was goody good. Managed to buy what I wanted, but the most impt part was the both of us catching up. Everytime go out with her must have a bottle of water each cos we cant stop talking to each other! YES it's contagious. Once one starts, the other cant stop.

Christmas Dinner at the Pines at the end of the week! Yay quite looking forward to that. (:

Random entry. Shall go slp now. Super tired. Bye bye.

2006-12-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

Just gt back frm SIS..so freaking tired but i still wanna blog. Tdy was quite a gd day, in fact it was a very good day beocs i woke up to the sound of my sms vibration and it was a msg from... perth (: Hahaha was like so nice can! Okay, i've been gushing alot about the same person but heck, nobody's asking you to read this anyway.

Alright. Then daddy's msg from UK was second. He watched Mama-Mia the musical at West End's Prince of Wales Theatre. Like WOW lah..even tho i dunno where tt is. but the name of the place sounds nice right..and dad loves ABBA so it was a gd time for him i guess.

Thirdly, I went online to check out Pris's posting for first (less than) 3 mths. And yes! She got into the school of her choice! So proud of her can..so msged her mum since they were happily holidaying in Tasmania/Melbourne. Yes, so the morning was quite 'international'.

Spent the morning doing math and got distracted by christmas cards along the way. TIM taught me Maclaurin's Series online can! On msn..that guy's a genius..but i, being such a slow learner, could possibly make him pull out all his hair. Yea, managed to get some parts of it but still cant understand some..haha shall ask him another time. He was actually rushing out. Hahaha

Spent the next hour or so decorating and writing my special christmas card. Hahaha it's quite nice i must say..handmade okay! Spent so much time on it..the receiver better be grateful! Okay, and i gt 'scolded' by the aunty at the shop printing photos. Why? I wanted to instant print photos. Then after i ordered and printed out the receipt to pay up, i realized i didnt bring my wallet down. So the aunty saw me crushing the receipt and cancelling my order on the instant print machine..and she scolded me =x So paiseh.

These few days has been kinda weird cos i keep forgetting things. Like just the other day, i went down to CP without my hp..which is seriously very very rare. Hmm.. must be more careful. hahaha..alrightys another day at SIS tmrw. Shall go slp early!

you do the craziest things but it's these kinda stuff that make me _ _ _ _ you (:

2006-12-13T14:00:00.000+08:00

Ytd was such a failure. Hardly did anything becos everything i picked up to do didnt like me..either they decided to be very difficult or just look like foreign words. *i'm rambling*

So tdy wasnt any much better because i only did 4 qns of math tutorial. Come on! they didnt teach the topic!! And they expect us to do everything. Hais i tried my best. Haha taking a break and watching movie online. Tim shared this movieonline website with me. Not bad.. there's quite recent movies too. Hahaha

Was so touched when my special somone called from aussie! But it was to ask about my shoe size...again. He did it when he was in KL and he's calling again when he's in aussie. Okay hopefully this time he'll decide properly whether to buy or not! Okay still very emo now. Haha tata! i'm outta here (:

2006-12-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

Managed to finish chem revision today..with alot of blanks everywhere. Quite forgotten everything taught this yr alr. Hais super bad!! But i feel quite accomplished. At this rate, i shd be able to finish everything by the end of this week. Yay yay! Went to SCH for practice. Sat there for 3 hrs plus singing the weird chanting songs. Oh wells, i thought time passed quite quickly. HAHAHA

Train-ed home with vivian after that. so many things to catch up..her stuff in TPJC and my life in MJC. Both weren't interesting. HAHA but we had a good time sharing the boring stuff. Kinda rushed home in hope of getting online ASAP for the one and only reason. but the one and only reason wasnt there. Oh wells..shall not put my hopes too high next time.

Feeling awake and tired at the same time now. Same feeling i got from last night. OK! i shall just go force myself to slp and hopefully not get anymore weird dreams. Seriously, last night i had the super weirdest, most nonsensical and most complicated dream. Shall not blog bout it here, too personal. Haha!!

you you you! my one and only reason (:

2006-12-10T17:34:00.000+08:00

I seriously need to find a pair of shoesss!! At least a nice one tt i can wear to school. Hahaha. Had only like 4 hrs of slp last night but staying up was worth it. So i went to church a little moody today.

This week is gonna be a chiong-ing week. Gonna do up all my hmwk and at the same time revisee! Yes i must accomplish that.

Chanting choir practices going on for the whole of the coming week until the performance on friday night. Hais i really hate it. Lord, why put me in this position! Practices are everynight at SCH from 7pm to 10 plus. I hate gettting home late after this kinda practices. It really sucks.

thank God for msn and microphones. whee!

this is such a random entry.

2006-12-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

Ho ho ho! Back frm M'sia! Jubilate II was quite a success i must say. Workshops were fantastic.. really learnt a whole load from the 3 clinicians that hailed from U.S, Philippines and Singapore. Haha last one so anti-climax. Ok nvm.

Christmas night was fantasticcc!!Yes. MJ was the only school that "dressed up"..as in we came in our pyjamas and stuff. It felt quite retarded initially then i think we looked quite cool while on stage., like so enthu and stuff. Haha

room maties =) this was our performance attire.

Next day we had our workshops by vocal professionals. Was very enriching cos most of the stuff were things that i never heard before. Dr Wong Su San's workshop was super fun cos she made us do alot of physical training like hopping ard the room like a monkey. wow wow. Okay show u a pic of the good looking clinician. Joshua something. Hahaha

Xin ying, Fengling and me with HIM!

Hahaha sound so freaking desperate. but he has nice EYES! and a big butt according to fengling. Hahaha no offence. And he has a nice way of singing..like half closing his eyes? HAHA

Final night was something like "mini SYF" tt we had in PL. So all the schools performed their SYF pieces. Some were really really impressive man. Okay and here's a photo of our really ODD costume/gown.

So yea that's about it. Shall just let the photos do the talking now.

I was getting bored while the others were shopping like madd

Wan Xin and I at our apartment's balcony

2006-12-03T17:59:00.000+08:00

I didnt buy the shoe from Vivo in the end. my consultant said it wasnt very very nice and could find something better else where. Hahaha so we ended up walking ard Vivo AGAIN! It's like our 3rd time there this week.

I got hungry but at the same time wanted to save my stomach for dinner with tertiary cell later on. So we headed to GIANT to find some small snack stuff. We decided on the weirdest thing. Pringles and apple juice. It was super duper random n the apple juice was those kinda huge bottle that costs like 99cents. LOL and being the greedy pig, I started eating as we walked ard. Headed to the open air area to get away from the crowd. Was kinda hot but I enjoyed it. Finished the whole can of Pringles, with me eating like 3/4 of it. Hahaha we were staring at the ships and boats that passed us. Somehow it just reminded me of the times we spent at the airport looking at planes =)

Went on to City Hall to meet the cell for dinner. Dessert was chocolate fondue! Too much chocolate, too little "side dish". Hahaha some of them were like using teaspoons and stuff to drink the chocolate. EEwww!! Trained home with Gordon after tt. He was trying to mimick my expressions. Sickening.

Was looking thru previous posts again. Brought back some very nice memories as well as some that made my heart want to break again. I'm just glad everything's perfectly in place right now. Everything i thought i was gonna lose came back to me and so did you.

Shall go pack up my stuff for the trip tmrw. Not sure if i'm actually done packing cos suddenly there seems to be very few stuff. Hahaha okay some random pics now.

my 2 nieces. Cam-whoring in my room!

Lenny! I got this as a christmas gift from Gordon last yr but i only realised it just recently and we gave him a name. HAHA spasm.

2006-12-02T11:10:00.000+08:00

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.

It's so frustrating/depressing to be unable to control my own diet. Came back from bangkok and lost my appetite for a week then suddenly the giant appetite of Elizabeth Eng Yan Ling came back again. ARGH! Like just the other day, 2 of us went to LJS and we ordered like...FAMILY MEAL?? And i ate half of it. Okay maybe not exactly half but it's bad enough. HAIYOOO!!!!!

Get over it.Get over it.Get over it.Get over it.

Leaving for m'sia with the choir on monday. Quite looking forward to it but at the same time quite pressurized since it's gonna be a combine school thing and we have to perform and stuff. Quite excited to go for workshops and stuff since i've never even been close to attending any of those stuff before. HAhaha

Tertiary cell dinner later on tonight. I shall go vivo(again!) to see a pair of shoes that i thought looked quite nice.hahaha Okays, shall go start to pack my stuff for m'sia =)

2006-11-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

Back!!

so Jetstar wasnt THAT bad but still bad, especially since first class on SIA was such a WONDERFUL experience. Everything had to be paid for on Jetstar. Yea budget airline. Cool.

Bangkok was a very busy busy place. not Singapore or NY kind of busy..actually i dun even know what the pple are bz with. The whole city just seems its moving very fast, everything so kan chionged. Air was kinda polluted. Heh heh

So days were spent shopping and shopping and shopping and shopping and shopping. That was for my mum and sis..as for me. It was window-shopping and window-shopping and window-shopping and window-shopping. Yea you get the point. Bought a few stuff here and there so i didnt come back to Singapore empty handed.

Didnt get to blog earlier since i had to go for OGL camp. Hais tired me out like mad =( Left camp a day earlier..hehe. First day was okay apart from some humiliation tt made me feel like screaming during ice-breakers and hearing bout some BYTCH that made me want to puke with disgust. Fortunately, i had my oh-so-darling gals to "comfort" me. LOL mass media.

Second day. Spent EIGHT frigging hrs with Rio at some unknown place in Tampines while someone else was far far away in bedok. Hais. So anyway, Rio and I talked talked talked and ate ate ate for 8 hrs. The weather was good for sleeping but it was just kinda weird to fall asleep with someone i just made friends with right. HAHA

So home-ing right now and waiting for the rain to STOP. Bbq session later on. Lord, pls MOVE the clouds away!!!!!

outta here.

2006-11-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Off to bangkok in a few more hrs time. ( like another 12??) Hahaha

Somehow wasnt quite looking forward to this trip but i guess it shd be quite fun lah. Whole family is going! yay yay! Hopefully can do some shopping. Must do CAREFUL shopping cos i realize alot of times, I buy stuff from overseas and keep them at home to rot. So yea. anticipating the food as well! but then again, the food there isn't exactly to my liking and with me constantly reminded of your "I'm supposed to help you (watch your weight)...", how to eat? Plus i'm on a quest to slim down...................

Here I come Jetstar airlines! Here I come bangkok! Here i come shoppingg and fooddd!!!

I know i'm gonna miss youuu

2006-11-12T21:16:00.000+08:00

i never saw the buddhist songs that we were singing in choir as something tt was actually "against" my religion. Okay so it's not exactly "against" but i just cant think of another word. So when one of the christian guys in choir told us tt he wasn't gonna sing in tt concert, i begin to have doubts of performing too. Went home and asked my parents about it then they said it wasn't too good ( no explaination given though....). So i went to church today and spoke to unty ju about it and she said something like "by singing those songs/chants, you're like glorifying the buddhist religion" which is of course not what i'm supposed to be doing. I am only to glorify the King of Kings! SOO now, gotta find a way to tell my president that i won't be singing for this performance =/

Anyway, service was a wee bit dry today. Managed to catch the main part though, thankfully. Trust. It comes with so so so so so many things. I think I've heard another msg on Trust before, cant rmb where though. Most of the time it really applies to me ALOT cos there's this part of me that cant trust anyone. It's difficult and the worst part is i dun even know why. sometimes i cant even trust the one dearest to me. Lord, teach me! I need to trust more in the Lord too!

Caught "Flushed away" with gordon and ivan after service today. ivan and i had free movie vouchers from dad's hsbc thing while gordon had to pay..hehe sorry lah! $9.50 for a cartoon. it was good lah just not worth it. was quite exciting. i actually thought "Flushed away" was the penguin show a.k.a "Happy Feet". So suaku lah. only realised when we were buying tics.

Some pictures from the last few days =)

Trees at pasir ris beach

downtown east christmas decor

A grp of happy cousins at esplanade.

my class!! yay with our "handsome" mr aaron tan. i lovee =)

2006-11-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging recently and now....bored stiff in the library so had to resort to doing this.

Last few days were spent alot in school and outside..was hardly at home man. I need more sleep!

Anyway, caught 'The Guardian' on tuesday at orchard. LOveeee! but abit too long. cinema was kinda empty though. duh~it was a weekend afternoon. haha but still nice! Ashton Kutcher acts funny in serious shows. Lol overall it was excitinggg!! =)

Cousin's dinner was on wednesday. Casper gave a treat at some jap restuarant in the esplanade. super shiok. Sharing of love stories the whole way..it was fun =) headed outside to take ALOT of photos. it was hilarious.

spent my wonderful ahem day pasir ris beach ytd. weather was perfect until it rained. Hais. oh well! it was still fun lahhh. Cam whoring. heh heh..i promise it won't happen again lah. dinner at hougang was good good as well. i just hope you get better.

Off to choir now. Bye byeeeeee

2006-11-02T19:57:00.000+08:00

Chinese Paper tmrw!

Hais, hopefully i dun screw this paper. It's my only hope even though it's like so unimportant but oh well, if i do badly, i'll kill myself. Been doing quite well this year so yeaa, Lord bring my through! Then no more chinese forever and ever and ever and ever. I think i just suck at teaching. Be it any subject. useless.

Woke up at 11am today to the shrilling screams and laughter of my 2 nieces at my place. Went down to play water with them. Didnt even swim any laps. I'm becoming soooo freaking lazy. Waking up so late, eating ALOT, not exercising, not doing anything. Lazy lazy lazy bummm.

OP's next friday! So fast can. and my speech is like so shitty still. Reading too fast, no articulation, no pauses..always the same few comments and i still cant change. die alr lah! gotta keep practicing these few few few days.

Something "shocking" happened this week. I never expected it to be this way. Hais..but it's the truth i guess and there's nothing i can do to change it. why didnt i put in more effort during the mid years. the results of it just hit me so hard. You say it's just a criteria, but to me it means so much more. Own expectations? i guess so. i cant get over it.

2006-10-27T11:32:00.000+08:00

Blogging again.

I'm kinda stuck at home despite it being a school/public holiday. Mum's unhappy with me and vice versa so going out would be quite a stupid thing to do. Attempting to talk but not quite working..so yea.

Spent the morning washing my toilet. Took one hour plus! Every single corner of that tiny toilet cleaned up. so pple, stop thinking i'm some princess sitting at home with nothing to do. I had to keep my mind occupied instead of thinking of loads of "what-could-have-been"s. Always happens. How how how?

Still contemplating if i shd go for youth camp. I feel like my nov-dec hols is alr so filled with activities. chalets after chalets, camps, holiday, m'sia trip with the choir. Was online with ced last night and he reminded me tt this hols was not exactly a "holiday" per se, but it was more of a study leave for us to catch up on everything covered this year to prepare for the block tests at the beginning of next yr. It really caught my attention cos i never thought of this nov-dec hols as a Study Leave.

So, i'm gonna go back to revision when nov starts! which is next week. BOO! but seriously, i was hopping around pple's blogs and some are alr mentioning stuff like "...starting tuition next week.." or "...just did math revision...". LIKE HELLO! i thought promos were just over.....!!!!! Okay chill, bird. you can do it too! oh man..i seriously hope so.

Should i go run or blade? i think i'll blade =)

When there was Me and You
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

No hidding meaning in this song. just thought it was quite well sung by Vanessa Annes Hudgen in High School Musical.

2006-10-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

blogging 2 days in a row. am i good or what.

i thought there was gonna be chinese in the morning so i happily went to school at 8 but to my horror i realized it was chinese consultations so it was like not really compulsory. Ended up watching "About a Boy" in the library on my laptop. So-so show. Some goondu still doesnt understand the story. tsk tsk.

Had lunch/recess after that. Had HOR-FUN in the school canteen..it was salty. pls dun ask me why..but it tasted very very salty when i finished eating the whole plate. went up to class for OP dry run round 2. sry for pang-sehing you again.

it was like one hour for each grp. thks to Mr tan's very thoughtful comments. But truth be told, he really can present and speak very well. So yes. I'd rather get comments from him than some teacher who cant do it well himself. so we spent 3 hrs altogether on our 3 grps. got rather restless by the time we reached the 3rd grp. And Mr Tan has something against jacelyn and i flirting in class. hehe. He thinks we have something against him. Oh pls.

So finally OP ended and i went for Carl's Junior! Okay first time i'm eating that can. I think my appetite has seriously increased by leaps and bounds...if i can put it that way. cos i didnt feel like cramped-full after the meal. i was just feeling...err...fine. Like as though i just had a Macs meal. Yucks.

School is Out!

I thought i was gonna end my day on a high but again, i screwed it up myself. why does everything always come out wrong. and how the hell am i supposed to forgive myself after all that has happened.

2006-10-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a waste of time in the morning. was supposed to have OP dry run at 8.30 but Mr tan was MIA for like 4 hrS?? turned out that he injured his arm so was on MC. so we hung ard in class. it actually felt more like a LAN shop cos there were like 4-5 laptops around..hahaha so later they played the whole "high school musical" show and plugged it in so it was on the big screen. hahaha if only we had a better show. but good enough lah.

Had choir after that. Mr Kwei was in a SUPER hot pink shirt. i love! so anyway we did the second part of Beati ( Beatee..Beaty??? ) then did jap song as well. ka na sai lah, according to mr kwei. Lol yea. Choir at SIGLAP SOUTH CC this sat. hais so so so far away..and its gonna be combine school..and SLs have to teach together. like how?!! so stressed.

Okay nothing much today. outta here!

2006-10-24T14:00:00.000+08:00

I'm sleepyyy!

Hais i'm becoming such a pig nowadays. Been eating and eating and eating and eating like nobody's bizness thks to someone oh-so-kind to me. So apart from eating, i've been wanting to sleep alot! and just last night, i slept at 1plus and woke up at 11 plus this morning. Haiyoosss..... went for brunch with my parents. teochew porridge at upper serangoon road was fantastic but it made me feel very bloated even though i didnt eat much. must have been the porridge!!!! evil. okayy

i sound so random. why? because i'm SOOO bored at homee!! other times, public holidays = study like mad. at least that's something to do rightt..then now, NOTHING. thinking whether to go run later and get mocked by you..but the sky looks kinda dark so shall see how later.

i want 06S415 to promote together as a class! Even though i know there's a high possibility that our class would be split up, i really really hope we'll be able to stay as a class! less than a year with this class but i love each one of them soooo much!

Shikin : you never failed to show ur concern when i was down! The loud laughters we shared in class..no one can compete with us! the beeaauuuutttiiifffuuulllll memories we shared this year will be brought up to next year! no doubts about that!

Nik : have i ever told you that you're like some motherly figure to me? Hahah must have been the national day's skit that sparked it off. thks for always ganging up with me to bully cedric cos i think he really deserves it, for always listening to my nonsense when most of the time they're really not impt at all. rock on with the ipod.

Jacelyn : my nearly lesbian friend. the oh-so-gentle, dj-soothing voice of urs never fails to melt my heart. was supposed to learn the gentle side of you but i guess the opposite kinda happened cos now i always hear you whining!! too much influence from me uh? nvm its nothing bad okay. you're the best as class chairwoman!

Leon : my twin brother! i still dun see any resemblance but NVM we're just both fair. mr smarty pants, pls top the level next year can? i know you cann! always being the spastic but it has brought much laughter and spasm into the class. keep it up! true VS =)

Man ning : PEBBLES! i still dunno why you got that nickname. because you're SMALL? haha everytime i think of you, i only have one word in mind : super sensible. okay so that's 2 words. nvm. the very very responsible chem rep who ends up carrying ms lau's bag! srryy, but i always find that damn hilarious.

Xinyun : my later twin, bus mate and my PW grp leader! super hardworking and diligent worker! doing henna was fun right! ms punk rocker, i still dun see how aaron tan sees u as soft-spoken? okay maybe just because ur voice isnt loud doesnt mean you're soft spoken right. haha looking forward to more bus rides next year!

Yi Cheng : banana man!! you and the corny jokes. unforgettable. so which hot babe are u eyeing on now? still karen lim uh. LOL you're one hardworkin dude lah, seriously. it's a compliment pls! okay go attract the hot babes with ur hot bod! eeww sounds damn wrong.

Linh : Class scholar! you're our shining glory. haha sry for making you cry because you laughed too much. thks for helping me with my math/chem/econs throughout the year! you're the best lah.

Ya Qin : nv fail to get suan-ed by aaron tan. you shdnt pon squash so much especially if ur CT is the teacher-ic. didnt really get to know you very very well this year but there's always next year! yay yay!

Jenny : the food stealer. Hahaha kidding. the jin san shun of 415. wouldn't have known you well if we weren't in the same PW group! Yeps so we'll hang out more together next yr yea? its funny but i just realized i nv heard u complain bout school work b4..hmmm

Jun Kai : my first 3 mths classmate till now! you're the best lah tellytubby! always helping me with whatever thing i need, i really really appreciate it! you get the weirdest haircuts but u still look cute can? i'll never forget ben & jerry'sss! next time we just buy the caramel and drink lah!

Andrew : i think you're the main reason i started speaking mandarin so much all of a sudden. oh wells. at least i'm improving! Hahaha thks for trying to cut down on ur vulgarities when i'm ard.. even though you kinda passed them on to me (HAIS!) . focus on ur work next yr ah! dun council this and that lah. heh heh

Bryan : the guy who know's how to sing PL's school song and knows her history better than me. Always hanging out with gals (esp ya qin..tsk tsk!) laughing like nobody's bizness and getting his face all red!

Cedric : my all time favourite classmate! save the best for the last. okay yea right. you witty moron..nobody can win you there. WHY? i dunno..isit because ur dad's a lawyer?? Hahahaha u nv fail to make my day better even when its alr quite good. stop bulllying us innocent ones okay!! but then again, without ur nonsense, class wouldnt be as fun. u laughing at ur own jokes. classique. i'm so glad you're gonna get promoted. now just hope we'll be in the same class!!!! =)

There u go..every single one of 06S415. i love you pple!!!!!!!

2006-10-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

"Unbelievable" by Craig David is nice (:

got back some results tdy. nothing fantastic but i thank God for them anyway..not that i actually expected anything fantastic. Okay whatever. More papers out tmrw. Gonna be scarier because they're giving out econs and chem. ECONS. it scares the shit out of pple. Really.

Enough about results.

I'm home after school now which ended at like 12.05pm today. did the hanna thing after school. Hehehe will post it online when i get a picture of it. realy pretty.. the colour's like quite weird though..orange.hahahha i thought it was supposed to be brown. Oh wells.

Cedric didnt come to school tdy again. Hais miss my favourite classmate!! even though he bullies everyone like mad. OH WELL. class is kinda quiet and stale without him. HAHAHA anyway. cedric did not come to school because his sprained his ankle while playing basketball. He's a badminton player by the way. okay no link. cedric must be too fat that's why. HAHA okay i'm being so mean here. GET WELL SOON BIG GUY! just two more weeks of school. COME BACK TO ENJOY OUR LAST DAYS TOGETHER.

alrights, i think i shall go sleep or something. there's nothing else to do anyway.

I'm outta here!

2006-10-13T17:47:00.000+08:00

Help.

dying of boredom.

freaking open house is killing everyone

2hrs and 20 mins to freedom.

2006-10-11T20:38:00.000+08:00

been a long time since a last post-ed something here. Haha feels like quite long when its been only a week plus. maybe it was because of the promos period! it must be. oh well, its all over now. Leaving it in God's hands! promote or not. He has His purpose for me.

It's over. i shall not comment further on promos.

The haze is REALLY bad. i think it's the haze that's always making me sleepy. like seriously. dunno how its linked but yea, my own logic? blame it on the hazeee!! Was at orchard on sat and it was like...super thick.it was actually quite choking. phew! anyway had nydc for dinner while i was there. too bad i cant upload the picture of what i had(even though it's really nothing fantastic), the cable for my hp is screwed so cant transfer anything.totally sucks.

We had intrahouse today. On one hand i felt like an idiot "referee-ing" street soccer, but on the other i quite enjoyed watching gals scream and guys acting macho. Hehehe so anyway it was rather enjoyable. i'm sure everyone goes through a certain project/organising commitee where you get the seriously gross kind of grp member and u just wished he/she was like non-existent. Yes, i got that shit today. When everyone was tired after everything he had to show his shit. Maybe not everyone was affected, but unfortunately, i've alr had bad encounters with him, so every minor thing about him irritates me. Hahaha! i shall ignore him. oh btw i wonder how a person like him can have a ego sooo huge as to put his name on the house com shirt "HANDSOME". someone pls wake this guy up.

Had choir for like i-dun-wanna-how-many hours. my legs were cramp from standing. I mean, compare us to sports? at least their MOVING ard..compare to dance? they're moving as well. compare to band? hello, they get to sit down. enough of this nonsense. okay at least i'm home now. we had a pretty interesting warm-up exercise tdy. singing lying down. i've never seen/heard of it before but at least now i know. Malacca trip's from the 4th-7th of Dec. [that gives us two days! (: ] quite looking forward to it i guess. YES I MUST BE POSITIVE. okay whatever.

my right leg is aching like mad now (dang, i sound like some old woman).

oh, and i'll be going for PL's founder's day dinner! Whoo!asked my dad to bring me, he brough my sister instead. So now i'm going with my class pple. we got our "reduced-price" tickets. exciting! haven't decided what to wearr! prom dress is totally out, another black has been worn too many times. maybe i'll just "kope" my mum's. i anticipate it to be oh-so-grand and formal man. it's PLMGS. duh~

Hmm, is my life that boring or isit just my extremely short-term memory that i cant think of anything to blog right now. Haha oh yes, i got caught up with the "princess hours" series on channel u. seriously, the show is nothing fantastic! but somehow i'm rather addicted to it. maybe its just quite entertaining to smirk at the gal's stupidity and soooo at the mercy of the prince. So anyway there are cute guys to spot once in a while, but the main characted ie the prince is..just..like..that.

another long day tmrw. it's been long days since monday. all thks to open house this friday! which i find so totally out of point, as in the organization of the whole thing. Oh wells, shall just see how it goes 2 days from now!

PW's on everyone's nerves now, and i feel so slack! my grp hasnt met up and our second draft of WR is still not ready. so dead so dead! then oral presentations will be coming up soon and there are alr groups starting on it. AHHH! okay chill lizzie chill.

we finally took a proper triton house com photo!abit blur on the 2 guys but heck. Hahaha there you go, 4th triton house com!

i need a day off big time! piled up with activities this entire week, i wanna just lie at home and slack the whole day. But then again, if i lie home and slack, i'd probably start complaining and all. Haha alrights enough of today's nonsense. rambling away like nobody's bizness.

how do u expect me not to worry. sigh!

2006-09-30T17:15:00.000+08:00

I miss my long long hair =(

Was looking a particular photo in my com, then screened past all the photos frm last yr and beginning of the yr before i cut my hair. It was like the ultimate regret. I want my hair backkk!!!

I know you miss your hair too you vain shit. hehe

I never realized it was so long until i looked back at the photos especially the one at christmas
last year. Never mind the weird face..i want my hairr!!!!!! I know it'll eventually grow, but right now its so disastrous. Hahaha

Alrightys, gtg get back to econs. Promos are HERE! I cant wait for them to be over, looking forward to the hols, the many dates with the gals from PL, TANNING, and many many other things to look forward to! But for now, i'm outta here!

I never meant to cause you so much hurt back then, so much regret because i was unsure of what i was doing myself.

2006-09-29T22:04:00.000+08:00

Quek sent me this song recently and initially thought it was some kinda soapy love song. Then i went to look at the lyrics and realize they're so beautiful. Lord, this song is to You.

Imagine Me Without You-Jaci Velasquez

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You are the only love I'll need

In my life you are all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You are the one that is there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day I'd be afray
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord You know it is just impossible
Because of you it is all brand new
my life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rush to set me free

The songs here as well http://www.geocities.com/smashed_links/WithoutYou.html but the recording isnt that nice. Yeps

2006-09-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

Okay just to update abit. No actually i cant. I shdnt even be here!

Anyway i'm still alive.

Apart from being on the verge of pulling all my hair out, i'm still quite sane.

Promos are in a week.

Freedom approaching in two weeks.

Looking forward to everything after the promos

But for now, i'm back to studying

Tata~

that tug at the corner of my heart, reminding me there's you

2006-09-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

OUTBREAK!!! someone pls help. DAng, it's really badd. =( seriously hate it when it happens. And this time its REALLY bad. eeyer. pls go awayyyy

Tuesday was quite a memorable day for me. I was stood up by a Guy. this Guy made me wait for 2 hrs before he came to meet me..talk about being fashionably late. tsk tsk. He owes me sharksfin. kuku Guy..i hate you.

Rest of the days were spent either going back to school to study or consultations. We had like 3 hrs of chem make-up tutorial ytd. swept me off my feet. Satisfied my craving at Elias Mall..chicken rice! not fantastic but at least i got to eat it. That was at ard 11 plus. Had to keep my stomach empty for the next few hours cos there was gonna be BIG dinner tt night.

Dad was giving my two aunts a treat. We went to Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel for their international buffet. The food was good good =) Alrights shall let the pictures do the talking for now.

My 2nd serving. looks quite little i know

This wasnt what i ate..probably my mum who was beside me.

Ele and i with our strawberry thingee. super sweet!

Dessert! This was my dad's i think. Mine had a whole load more

Fascination with the chocolate fondue

Place outside the hotel. Singapore River

My darn cool family. 6 pillars for 6 of us

Me attempting prawns for the first time

Ele and i taking a break in the toilet. Hahaha

Lamp post. quite a pity the lights behind didnt come out tt nicely.

Rights there you go. Cam whoring and good food. Week is coming to the end again..which means school's gonna reopen! Oh wow definitely looking forward to it. Heh

'm outta here!

2006-09-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

cedric is pang seh king lah. Was supposed to study with me in school ytd but he ran off with someone else =( but luckily i wasnt alone or i would have slapped him. Such a nanny-poo that guy.

Church had AOK today. Gave out umbreallas and all. was kinda slack, i didnt even have to speak to any home. Hehhe lunched in church. There was no duck rice. sigh! i've been having this MAD craving for duck rice since ytd. And when i was right in front of the duck rice stall, i told the guy i wanted char siew rice. I must be mad.

This is just a rather random entry. Discovered some new pics from last christmas from joy's blog. So glad to see the photos!! Missing for one year plus cos they're all with germs. Hehehhe!! hint hint*

these gals rawk lah~and the hats rawk too!

2006-08-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

Love the story posted down there. My mum forwarded that email to me..haha. Super touching =)

Teacher's day celebration today. Kinda unfortunate that it rained, so the event couldnt be held at pasir ris park. Oh well..it was rather boring i guess. Seems like every occassion has the same things happening. National day and teacher's day. Like same kinda performances. Went back to PL, met a few old friends but went off even before meeting any of my teachers! DAng..Was super tired lah..was like stoning home with ele. Didnt even have the energy to talk. Dunno what was wrong with me also lah.

Slept for nearly 5 hrs. Whole afternoon gone. I'm gonna study tonight! i must and i will. Whee~ cant think of anything much to post. Whole week of school life has been quite stale. Quite disappointed with some pple whose level of maturity seems to be way lower than my 10 yr old brother.

hmm do we really look that alike?? Leon, my twin bro

Best friendss! look at how mad we can get

Racial harmony forever! i love you two!!

06S415 without cedric-my favourite classmate. one day one dayy..

2006-08-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Herwords suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed mywife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.

I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not becausewe didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

2006-08-27T17:59:00.000+08:00

The way you look at me - Christian Bautista
No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up too
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes see everything without a single word

CHORUS'
Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze a moment in my mind
It'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stands still
'Cause, baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

[BRIDGE]
I don't know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time

Updating now! Beautiful song up there. It really is. If i knew how to upload a song onto blogger, i would put it here alr but unfortunately i dont. So anyway the song is really nice and the lyrics are so sweettt!

It's been a week since i went to the national library and i'm alr missing the place. Ahh! I wanna go back soon. But they're really strict bout what we bring in and all so yea, gotta be extra discreet. Lit project is over! we managed to pass =) 15/25 for a half done project. Hehehe well done gals, love you two loads.

School has been both hectic and great at the same time. Big apology to the house comm first. Haha i haven been doing much for IHG i know..the two times i stayed back i didnt even do anything! First time was with gordon so we still walked around occasionally to see things but when i stayed back the second time, i did my work instead..so like not staying back at all. Haha but i'm so glad everyone did welll and triton are the champs once again! yayness =)

I love pe lessons now cos we're learning the dance for aces day. one hip hop and the other kick-boxing. kick boxing rocks with jacelyn. So enthu! was really damn fun.

It's mad rush now. Promos are coming but they're still teaching syllabus. That is totally a turn off i tell you and this is what my math tutor told us "this tutorial ah..we will be going thru next yr". And we were all like ??!!! and the best part is that topic is included in our exams. Like so cartoon lah!! Oh wells, other than tt. I'm glad I FINALLY gotten started on revision. I think i'm like quite late alr. argh!

Oh oh! i shall post this: MR FONG IS TAKING PL FOR SYF NEXT YEAR!! i feel like kissing that madman pls. Last year told us that he's migrating to macau??!! and now he's back to take the gals for syf!! I was so elated when wanyi told me the news. Seriously..even though both of us won't be under him (sadddd!!) but we're super super happy that he's taking PL HANDBELL CHOIR for syf and not some other pple. I feel like jumping ard even as i post this. Hehehe

And to my bestest friend. KEE WEN MINN! Congrats once again!!! I'm so proud of you gal. Be more confident okay! And when are u gonna treat me with ur monetary award?! 500 bucks must share ahh =p

*My life has been turned ard because i found someone special.

2006-08-19T11:41:00.000+08:00

I dunno why, but somehow my laptop has everything in chinese. Even bloger is in chinese now..like what the hell. Cheena cheena all the way man. Rights, i'm sitting in the national library now. Hahaha they've got the wireless going ard, so good for shikin and i since we're gonna be doing project in about half an hr's time. Sigh!

Was here ytd as well..reading up on austen's books. Gosh, read until got headache sia. So many things to read about!!!! So anyway, we gotta do up the ppt and stuff later on. Sheesh, hopefully we finish it. GOtta present on monday alr! Dang. Oh and this is only my second time to the national library since it renovated. Lol ytd was my first time here. So suaku. It's really quiet but the only turn off part is that we cant bring in our bags into reference levels. So its like, i have to take out nearly everything from my bag, carry them in my arms, throw my nearly empty bag into a locker, and go into the library. Quite retarded but oh well, its the national library.

There's the gal/lady sitting opposite me now. Same person i was sitting opposite to when i was here in the library ytd. How coincidental. Hmm..WHERE THE HELL IS SHIKIN AND NIKSTERRR!!!

Supposed to meet at 11am, and now it's alr 15 mins to 12pm. They're the best lah..oh wells, still love them. hahaha kk, i better go get started on the ppt first. Yuck yuck powerpoint sucks!

2006-08-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

Dang. Fell sick on tuesday thanks to the very very terrible weather. And to think i was just telling someone recently that i've got a very strong immune system. Sigh..the feeling seriously sucks. The last time i fell sick was some time ago but this time was really like the whole body system crash or smth.

Missed the last 2 lessons on wednesday. Forced by aaron tan to go home cos he didnt want me to infect the rest of my classmates. made me feel so inconsiderate =( Oh well, he's nice lah. Went to see the doc but it was closed! So instead of going home, i waited for about 45 mins before they opened. Sat in the clinic, was freezing cold.

So anyway, didnt go back to school today. Wasn't feeling too well still, so just slept a little more. had to go down to TB control unit again (and thank God it's the last time! i'm finally discharged) to check the results. had to take xray and all..the doctor doing the xray looks like some old man who lived past worldwarII and still surviving. Lol he's old and cute lah.

Rushing out my WR now. Yea, how ironic. Rushing it but still got time to blog. Haha actually what made me blog was because i've got something to announce. Lol! I saw this old old woman in a freaking bikini at the pool!!! Ultimate gross pls. I shall not comment further but you shd know how i feel. I was about to relax my eyes by looking out to the pool but viola, i see the old bikini woman. SORE EYES AH! okay enough.

Oh did i mention, fireworks on saturday was incredible.

2006-08-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

S.O.P at SCH..my 2 fantastic juniors =) look at how fat i've become after coming into JC. GROSS

There you go, that's err nearly the class. A few missing but yea they still rock =) i still look like a guy here..dang.

Stephen and jaron back from the states. Lol fyi, pris is actually quite tall okay. so yea, stephen is..TALLER. reminiscing our younger days =)

See what happens when we stay together for so long, we start to look alike. SCARY

2006-08-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

S.O.P was wonderful. Music was great and all..noella yan rocks my sock!! So hot so hot..sadly i dunno why i cant find any picture or info about her on the net..which is really weird. Oh wellsss.. ANYWAY the company rocked too (elvia, happy now?HaHA). We actually had quite okay seats at S.C.H but we met wm's guzheng conductor and he asked the 4 of us to go sit at the "box" which is upstairs so tt we can take video for him. Hahaha quite fun experience up there. Not too bad view

Handbells was fantasticcc! I think they were really good. Minor minor mistakes here and there, probably wont be picked up by normal players, but hello...i'm a handbell ringer, obviously i can spot the mistakes. Lol! Okay enough, overall was nice =) Noella yan's performance, handbells and guzheng were the best performances lah! Hahaha i'm not being biased alrights but its based on facts. Haha!

so anyway, evening was spent with wm, fel and elvia. Interesting company. Haha! trained home with wanyi, mel png and frens. I felt old. lol! So anyway, the $25 did justice.

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Patterson's were back on sunday. So good to see them again. Lunched with them for a while then had to go home to do up lit essay and study for chem test. sianess. Down to the airport later to send sophia and family off to the US. nearly teared when i gave her a hug before i left for another gathering. 2 whole yearS!! mannn...........

Gathering at cheng wah's place for the patterson family. back to the old days. Pris, rach, ele and me..bliss. trying to harmonise songs for fun..so cartoons. choir choir all the way sia. Lol! when we reached 9.30pm, i was getting kan choing to go home cos i hadn't finished studying chem. Oh wellss. so that was my very jam-packed sunday.

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National Celebrations today. performance was rather screwed in the LT where the j2s were but i guess it was RATHER fine. Hall was much better even though i kept laughing at who-knows-what. was quite cartoon and i kept laughing at zhu-en when we were standing together cos he cldnt get his timing right. it was hilarious.

went to town with the class. lunched at swensens! was a lazy tuesday afternoon man. Shikin and i felt like sleeping and just lazing there the whole afternoon. was like damn fun. kept laughing at bryan's inflating stomach, was so retarded. his whole stomach was like bloated up when he sucked in air. it was hilarious..sat there for some time. Took photos here and there, went over to coffeebean, celebrated leon's birthday! my dahling twin brother =)

Went home after that with yi cheng. Both of us were pretty stoned on the train. REnted "Rumour has it" from the dvd machine when i got home. Fell aslp on my bed the moment i reached home, slept for about 2 hrs then woke up to watch the show. so here i am now. Lols. enough of this. going back to slp again. Haha

some evaluation needs to be done. an analysis of what is becoming of this.

2006-07-30T18:59:00.000+08:00

Decided to update abit since i'm like quite brain dead after trashing econs into my brain. Got a test tmrw on oligopolyyy. So far, i've been understanding market structure quite well, understand the concepts and all. But when it comes to source-based questions, i dunno how to apply these concepts. Lol. had a test on MC last week and i got 7/15! haha so proud of myself pls. in fact, nik and i were so happy cos its the first time we passed econs (an E is a pass okay...). The rest of our econs tests are like 3/15 or 2/15. Yeaa at least for me lah, not too sure about hers. so yea, we shall work harder!!

So anyway..choreo for choir national day song is finished! wasn't too difficult in the end..but we definitely need more polishing. lol! And seriously, teaching GUYS (as in, literally..male) how to dance is like..torture. No joke, short attention span and they GIGGLE at everything. Oh well, at least the learnt the steps.

21/07
Wen minn came over to swim and tan! Okay, so she got the tan and i didnt. what's new huh! She came over str8 after MY school ended. Changed damn fast after we suddenly heard thunder. Rushed down to cold storage to buy drink and chips! Enjoy life... Came back, the sun was still shining so we were two happy gals. Swam, ate and chat. like so tai tai lah! Rained abit, but we just sat under the umbrella, since we were alr wet so didnt really care. swam, ate and chat somemore b4 washing up.

Went back to PL for "homecoming". Hahaha some thanksgiving dinner/service for my batch. Felt so good to be back in that school, though its only a holding school, but it was where i spent my last year of secondary school!! So touching..

22/07
This day was quite terror. Meet the parents sessions after our mid-year results. Wow. it was quite okay i guess, not much compains from Mr Tan or i would have screamed. Band concert at night. Jap band from Meidan High School is ULTRA GOOD!!! It was spectecular man..enjoyed the concert with jun kai and yi cheng.

27/07
My most stressful day. Or actually, it shd be the day b4 tt was super stressful. This was how my day (27/07) went. Had lessons until 4 plus, had my chem re-test. Short break followed by rehearsel for national day which turned out quite retarded. Rushed down to church for musician practice which ended at nearly 10. It was a whole day running. And hence, why the stress? Because, the day before, i had to chiong all my hmwk for tt day as well as the next. It was scary..like a thousand things i tell you. Ugh! Oh well, thank God for His sufficient strength, i was "saved".

28/08
missed one lesson to go back TTSH for a jab. It's freaking stupid because i travel all the way from PASIR RIS TO NOVENA. It's like more than an hour okay! And when i reach there, it takes less than 5 seconds to stuff that needle and medicine into my skin and then i'm off. Spastic right. At least i had something to look 4ward to after the jab...watched The Lakehouse!! Something quite interesting happened in the cinema. Was sitting at the side seats of the cinema, so there were like 3 seats there and my friend and i only took up two. So i was saying

"I hope nobody sits next to me"
"Wont have lah, who watches a movie alone?"
"have! i've heard of it before"
"So odd to watch movie alone lor"

The next thing we knew, this big fat guy came to sit next to me. Okay, it didnt really matter if he was big or fat but the fact that he came to watch The Lakehouse by himself was really..ODD. And for goodness sake, he was actually laughing and snorting to himself. i was freaked out. So anyway, the show was a-okay, quite draggy at some parts but overall not bad. The company you watch with also counts lah =)

30/07
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PARTNERRR!! I love you loads. THANKS for the whole of last year sitting next to me, listening to me whine and having to wake me up each time i fell aslp during lessons!! I'll never forget those days :)

Today's band for both services was the same cos it was the last week of the youth month. so had something different. Tiringgg playing for both services man.. no stamina! hahaha but it was good. God's presence ~~was~~ is awesome!

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Rights, back to school tmrw for another long week! Oh look, racial harmony! I LOVE YOU GALS! you guys make life in MJ so MUCH more exciting =)

*Sometimes i wished beautiful things could come to a standstill. But i realized as we move along, more wonderful things come our way*

Every minute with you is heart-melting

2006-07-16T13:15:00.000+08:00

Exciting exciting!

Hmm..i have no idea what i'm excited about actually. I just feel like it's a new me? i feel changed by God just recently. It feels like a sudden surge of power & all-new strength from Him. Thank you Lordd!!

I'm looking at life in a different perspective now. LEarning to prioritize things tt are going on in my life. Between God and Studies as well as Family. I think i'm getting there =) Things have been going rather smoothly this week and I'm sure it's gonna continue to be like that cos "Lord, i'm putting my trust in You". Many things to do:
1. Cheoro for choir National Day medley
2. Triton + Callisto publicity
3. HMWK!
4. Concerns over a certain someone
5. Project Work

I think right now the first 2 are like the most rush ones and impt. But yea, i can do it! Believe believe.

As for no.4, sigh. sometimes why i put myself in situations where i'm overy concerned for someone, but all u get is "mind your own business"/ "i don't need your help". Of course, they wouldn't say it so directly. But yea get the idea. Maybe i just shdn't get too "emotionally attached". Haha

Rightys, not gonna blog about everyday of the week lah. Would be wayy too much. Just praying for a safe and good week ahead. A lvl chinese listening on tuesday afternoon. Aiyos, must focuss! Or else....do badly again. Hehe. +)

Isit true that things may start off well, but the ending always turns out bad? I don't want a bad ending to this.

2006-07-10T19:03:00.000+08:00

Back to normal lessons in school. Gonna have more nagging from the teachers..more motivation to study even harder because PROMO'S are in THREE mths time!! OKAY enough of studies. i think whoever reads my blog must be hell bored of me lamentating over my studies in every post.

So anyway, i forgot to update about what happened on friday!! Apart from getting back the oh-so-terrible results, i spent my afternoon with Allison in...CHINATOWN! Yea, imagine one young lady and a me in school uniform jalan-ing Chinatown. It's gonna be our favourite hang out pls.

Anyway, we took a train there. Weather was supa hot when we reached there. So we were in Chinatown Point and i received a msg from Irene telling me the different shops we could go to find the beads for sophia's farewell present. So there was this shop called "Golden Dragon" and we were so fascinated by the name, we said it so loud..like "GOLDEN DRAGON?? where is that man..." and this woman walking past us replied our (supposed to be rhetorical) question. " Golden Dragon ah? Tt's at People's Park Point. Cross the overhead bridge...down the stairs..." and so on. It was hilarious. The place was kinda quiet at that time, so no surprise she could hear us. Put Allison and I together..loads of noise.

So anyway, we had lunch first at S11. Ah peh ah mah everywhere. Lol!! Quite satisfying lunch. Walked into the different shops that Irene recommended, compared prices in every shop. Hahaha my memory is damn pathetic. Went to OG to walk ard, while waiting for Irene to end work! Yea, she was coming to meet us. Give us consultation on what type of beads to buy.

So yea, in the mean time, went to the coffeeshop to get a drink. We talked SO much pls. Lol! Watermelon juice for me, apple juice for her. Wah, our first sip was like magical. Haha Irene came at ard 5 plus. Bought the beads and stuff, waited for eujin to come fetch us to joann's place for dinnerR!

SUMPTUOUS! Yea, Joann cooked dinner for us =) Italian style. Wooohooo! Spent the time there talking and talking and screaming occasionally? haha i was bullied the whole night. hahaha so anyway, watched abit of TV then Irene n EJ gave us a lift home. As usual lah..they can be my 2nd god-parents or maybe Nannies?? okay enough.

So friday was spent rather well. Good company. loved it. Weekend was a-okay as well, apart from the PW pangsai. no other words to describe lah. Off to dinner now! i can smelll ittt!!!

we're communicating much better now. maybe its just how i feel on my part. one is left to wonder the fascinating ups-&-downs of our lives.

2006-07-08T15:47:00.000+08:00

Wrecking my brains trying to think of survey questions now. Blah totally hate it. On the other hand, i've got something more interesting to look forward/think about.

The Lake House Movie! Yep..MUST WATCHH!! I've watched the trailers like 5 times? Haha so beautiful pls. nice nice nice! Some kinda fairytale-like story but i wanna watch it!! Gotta find out for myself if they actually meet in the end. Yea, so pls dun spoil the show for me by telling me what's it about if you catch the show earlier than me. 26th july! The day it openss =)

Here's the line: One man I can never meet. Him, I would like to give my whole heart to.

2006-07-06T16:35:00.000+08:00

Stressed stressed!!!Over just ONE thing and its freaking impt and would be disastrous if i didnt complete it by this weekend. PROJECT WORK. =(

I've yet to craft the survey questions. Oh wait, i've not even done my research yet!!! Okay, then i gotta conduct the survey and maybe do some interviews. Like HELP, i dunt even know exactly what the project is about because our GPP has yet to be confirmeddd!!!

Omg. freaking freaking out!!

Over one weekend, i'm supposed to finish survey. And the bloodeh EOM is due on tuesday. AND THEN there's GP project. One week to complete it. ONE WEEK. like WHAT?! Then there's choir that will take up the whoollleeee day on tuesday and wednesday.

And I've gotta scout chinatown and who-knows-where for a fren's farewell tmrw. Then there's alr a planned dinner at joann's place tmrw night. So there goes friday..Sat! Devoting the entire day to PW alr.

Yamcha-ing on sunday with the pple from the church grp. then there's the JG vs MG match that i alr promised quek i would go and "support". Man, i might have to give tt a miss if i'm not done conducting interviews/surveys. Damn!

Oh did i mention we're getting like Math and Chem papers back tmrw. Which is soooo wrong. It's like doom day or smth. I think these few weeks are just gonna be havocc!! like big time.

i hate this.

ANYWAY on a lighter note. was on the phone with a fren last night and he was telling me bout a grp of pple who just started a small grp to pray. They were following some 40 days fasting thing. Yea so i joined them tdy. Read thru some notes that were given, then spent time praying for Singapore and the school. Oh and malaysia too! haha cos we had a malaysian with us =p

He was also sharing with me about his "reading bible experience"? Haha so after we finished talking, i just took out my bible and realized i haven been reading my bible that often. Bad i know. So without any devotion material or whatever, i just flipped thru here and there and came to the book of James and the first chpt was on trials and temptations. Cool huh. I mean, it was totally what i needed at that time. So yea, thank you God and to you-know-who-you-are.

Waiting for some meeting to start. Blahh did i mention i'm blogging in the school library. Whoo. outta here!

2006-07-03T19:56:00.000+08:00

There's either smth wrong with me or the rest of the world has gone mad. Am I that lost for pple ard me or is it just something to do with me? Why do i keep feeling that there's a part of me missing? That there's just this feeling that keeps creeping in and out of me. There used to be this period of time..no actually i've always hated the feeling of loneliness. It's like i cant sit still for one minute if i'm alone, i've always had to run ard to find someone to irritate, to just hang ard someone. But now (since i started hanging out with you), i suddenly felt like it didnt matter if there was anyone ard me. I wanted to keep to myself..about everything.

I thought there were some things i could have learnt from you. Learning how to ignore what pple said about me (those negative ones/just stuff i didnt wanna hear), not bothering bout what the latest gossips were. Even the idea of i-looking-so-stupid-standing-here-in-orchard-alone was swept off, simply becos there were so many ocassions that i had to be waiting. I thought these were good, but they proved not to be "in the long run".

The more i didnt wanna hear bout certain things, the more they kept coming. The more i kept to myself, the more self-centred i became. Where was the times when i could be so concerned/worried for a friend that i could cry? Now it's all become "i dun give a damn". WHAT'S wrong with me?

Maybe what some of my close friends said about me is true. I don't have a life. I shun away from almost everything, now to the extend that there's always a chance for me to just go out and chill with my friends. Curfews that i hafta obey, my own stand on where we go to chill, the pple i hang out with. The irony: what got me thinking about all this was becos a 3 grps of friends asked me out tdy and i turned everyone of them down. Sad huh? I had my reasons this time. But how bout the rest of the times? Was i really plain busy with studying or whatsoever or what?

Sometimes i just want time to pass fast, allow me to finish my 2 yrs in college, then fly off to some deserted island. Re-discovering who i really i am.

Family's here. Friends are here as well. Life's good. I dunno what I'm lacking, seriously. It's not that i dun feel blessed, or that I'm ungrateful for everything God has so wonderfully provided me with. Perhaps it's just something that has gotta do with me. A mind so clouded.

Perhaps it's just time to get right with God.

2006-07-01T10:24:00.000+08:00

Exams are way over and now i'm taking my looonnggg weekend break. no school on friday(ytd!), no school on monday and tuesday as well. Bliss :)Alrights, music marathon on thursday night. Soo nice geddin the class to sing and stuff. At least everything went pretty smoothly, watched the other grps perform as well. Left at about 2am and cabbed down to wenna's hse with her and Wm. They were so high in the cab pls. Lol

Camped over at wenna's place. Her bed is so huge and nice pls! Always go there to use her bed =p wm was rushing her project for school the next day (HAHAHA) while wenna and i were catching up on slp. Being VERY nice friends, and since we didnt have sch on friday, we followed wm to TP! The schooll is wayy nice =) Didn't venture ard the school cos i was too chicken. Wm went for lessons while wenna and i went to the library to slp. Hahaha i was too tired to do anything. Woke up about 45 mins later and watched some korean drama ( Sorry, i love you ) on her iPod ( or whatever it's called ). Lols, one side of the ear plugs was in chinese, the other was in korean. i was listening to the korean one. HAHA

MET UP WITH BENJAMINNN!!! He ponned his econs lecture to find me pls =) miss him miss him miss him!!! He's so "stress-free" now, and "the gals here are better-looking than those in MJ". err okay. HAHA! But its true lah. walking ard, from this place to that, and i alr see a few good looking GUYS. =p Went to the Business Park, to find smth to eat. Haha did i say..i cant stop eatinggg!! Okay anyway, first pple we saw there: JASMINE SEAH, STEPH AND TIFFANY. Didnt hafta plan to meet at all. hahaha screams shouts and laughing. It was hilarious. jasmine wanted to do PL cheer there lah!HAHA Then i saw ben chow who was first 3 mths in MJ, he was with the gals too. haha saw some more pple here and there. enjoyable lah =)

Went to catch Just My Luck with wenna after that. Her mum had free tics. Yayness. The show's so-so only lah, nothing wow-wow about it. Typical lindsay lohan/hilary duff kinda show. Hehehe, trained home after that. She had to go back SP for CO practice. Ele and her friend was at my place. both of them were preparing for music marathon. Haha so kan-chiong =p

Went to slp at 8 plus, woke up at 11.15 to watch the germany vs argentina match. wah excitement all the way! Shiok shiok!! Luckily i decided to wake up and watch, or else i would have regretted BIG TIME! Tonight's england vs portugal match also another must-watch. okay, every england match is a must-watch for me. Hahaha! ENGLAND MUST WIN!!! But there's service tmrw. Still contemplating if i shd watch. Haha

Okay, going down to church for musician prac now. Then down to chinatown to look for farewell presents. Yay!

2006-06-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

Online with a really really good friend that i lost a few mths back because of a stupid quarrel. we patched up some time ago, but we never really did talk. but i thank god we're fine now. He was really one guy i really really trusted as a friend, cld even regard him as my best fried during that time. but oh well, even though we're still back to normal talking terms, it just..different alr. kinda sad huh. But really, being back to friends is satisfying. =)

2006-06-22T19:18:00.000+08:00

Ding Dang Dong. Mid Yrs are comminnggg! So scary man, But my friend just reminded me "4 days of exams, 4 days of break" =) Looking forward to the end of that torturous 4 days man. Then shopping spree again, take advantage of the sale man

I'm putting on weightt!! My goodness, my appetite is increasing like nobody's bizness man =( Yea, and the rubbish that i keep eating during the matches at night. so yucky pls. Hate it hate it!! But i think the main "sin" really comes frm my increasing appetite. Hahaha looks like running doesnt really help that much or maybe its just not enough. AHh this sucks! So depresseddd man.

I just cant wait for this week and the next to end.

2006-06-21T14:58:00.000+08:00

Discovered this on a fren's blog from quite some time ago. Hehe relieve stress =p

Name twenty people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.
1. Ele
2. Prissy
3. Rachel Tan
4. Allison
5. Khadijah
6. Ben
7. Ivan Tan
8. Gordon
9. Germaine
10. Isaac
11. Avonne
12. Joyce
13. Charis Toh
14. Wen MINN
15. Wenna
16. Partner
17. Tiffany
18. Jacelyn
19. Xin Yun
20. Wan Xin

How did you meet #14 ?
Back in PL in the classroom. HAHA

What would you do if you didn't meet #1?
I'd probably not be able to grow up porperly!

What if #9 and #20 dated?
Kinda Odd?! Cos they have no idea who the other person is =p

Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
I can't imagine. Again, they have no idea the other exists. But again, they're in the same Poly.. so yea.

Describe #3 .
Oohh! My bestest friend who grew up with me! Yea she's patient, ultra pretty now( i guess there are 'reasons' eh?) Always there to exchange INFO with me when we're bored. Heh

Is #8 attractive?
I dunno if attractive is the way to describe him? HAHA

Describe #7 .
Hoho, ivan was my cell leader (i've got no idea if i'm still under him=p) .He's always stoning ard, reliable and super uncle! Yea, my stoning shifu!

Do you know any of #12's family members?
YES! I know her whole family pls. We're in a FAMILY church. Haha

What would you do if #18 confess to you that she likes you?
Bloody lesbian? But yea, i'll just accept it i guess. HAHA

What languages does #15 speak?
Chinese, English..combination of both.

How old is #16?
17!

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
Just half an hour ago. She was at my place for lunch and watching x-men b4 going for chinese tuition. Hahaha

Who is #2's favourite band/singer?
Never asked. I feel bad now =( I know she listens to quite a wide genre of songs. HAHA

Would u ever date #4 ?
Heh, i dun mind!!

Would you ever date #7?
AH pls, he belongs to my best friend alr =)

Is #15 single?
HAHA unfortunately, NO!

What's #10's last name?
ENG! My bro pls.

Would u ever be in a relationship with #11?
We've got a good relationship going alr ;)

School of #3?
Victoria Junior College

Where does #6 live?
Somewhere in Tampines

What's your fave thing about #5 ?
Her ability to lead :)

Have you seen #1 naked before?
Hehehe, i think so! When we were freaking babies. HAHAHA!

2006-06-16T16:18:00.000+08:00

I think i must be one mad freak for blogging almost everyday. Hahaha too bad, i get bored at times. I'm currently (still) listening to 'Goodbye' by Airsupply. Oh! England won last night with a score of 2-0 agst Trinidad&Tobago. It was during the last few minutes of the match..So intense!! My friend was commenting that he wanted to kill all the strikers from England cos they seriously played like crap during the whole match before the 2 goals. But yay! They're going into the semi-finals =)

Just read partner's blog. I feel so sad for herrr!! Breaking up with her BF must have been tough but she still seems so strong about it. I've never gone thru a "real" break up before but just arguments btw a fren and myself alr makes things so painful and heart-breaking. I cant imagine myself having to go thru a break-up with future boyfriends or whatever. The torture! Seen a few of the close pple ard me go thru this shite, all the crying for nights, hating the person, yet at the same time wishing the person would be back with them. Guys getting ditchedby the lady, gals getting ditched by the guy. It all goes back to feeling the same thing: Hurt.

At least if you're just close to the person, but not committed to the relationship, perhaps the pain would be more bearable? I dont know. I guess being in a relationship could make life alot 'nicer', more interesting and perhaps more 'whole'. But, having to come to an end really sucks doesn't it? As the saying goes, everything good has to come to an end. True/false? I would disagree with that. From my perspective, it would probably be true to some boy-girl relationships but how bout when it comes to a marriage? It would no longer hold true.

Mum is always telling me to "take things slowly" in a relationship. Not that i'm in one right now, but parents tend to be "cautious" once they know there's a guy somewhere. I must say i'm really blessed to be in a family with parents who's "been there, done that" and are willing to take the time to know what i'm going through and offer advice that may seem so ridiculous off-hand. But after time, i realize that through all they've told me actually does help me in thinking what i shd/shd not be doing. There are times when i've asked my mum "If i do get into a r/s now then how?" and she would start again on the "advantages/many disadvantages" on getting into one at such an age. Note: its not like she wants me to be left on the shelf or anything alright. Haha she just feels that at this age of a YOUNG 17, we shdnt be tied down to a r/s for nothing For some, we would think "17 alr lehh, not mature enough?". I feel that way at times. But look! In this convo with ur mum, who's the more mature one? Hahaha yea. So, i usually think back and really thank God for my "sensible" mum drilling these stuff into me. If not for them, maybe i would have been dumped a million times alr.

Please do not ask me why i'm suddenly talking bout this stuff. Hahahaha once i start, i cant stopp! But now i gotta stop cos i've gtg back to study chemistryyy!!!!! Boo to MYE =(

2006-06-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

Watching England's match vs Trinidad and Tobago now. I'll cry if England loses. Reason being: i like the team, IZ and dad support them too and of course, they have the rather better looking players. =) I cant believe i decided not to watch the Ecuador match agst Costa Rico. 3-0 lehh!! And according to dad, Ecuador played very very well. Alamakss missed one exciting match. =((
And now, England doesn't seem to be playing quite well, that's why i can be blogging at the same time. Hehe

Anyway, away from soccer. JAY DID NOT GET INTO THE TOP 12 OF S'PORE IDOL!! yea, i'm sad okay. He sang so well. When i first saw his face, i thought "soo cheena looking, confirm those kind cannot sing properly". HaHA but NOO! He sang "Goodbye" by AirSupply and i am now addicted to the song. =)

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Air Supply - Goodbye
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(David Foster/Linda Thomas-Jenner)

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I’ll never criticize all you’ve ever meant to my life
(chorus)
I don’t want to let you down
I don’t want to lead you on
I don’t want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can’t live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There’s nothing left to say but good-bye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I’m not sure I’m worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

(chorus)
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can’t live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry

There’s nothing left to try
Though it’s gonna hurt us both
There’s no other way than to say good-bye

OKAY the captain of trinidad-tobago just got the ball rammed into his very sensitive area. Yes ouch* I cant feel for him but yea, you know the pain. Lol kays, i shall watch the match and try to remember some of the player's name for fun =p

how can it be so coincidental? so many doors but you came thru the one that i was at :)

2006-06-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

It's been a week of studying! Hahhaa, stupid me. But too bad, the bloody exams are comingg and i've got no choice but to just keep studying! Okay, abit exaggerated lah. I'm not studying 24/7 or smth. Hahha, been going down to run ard the estates the last 2 days. Sense of satisfaction and a great way of relaxing =) Must account for all the junk i've been taking in since the start of world cup.

I'm quite addicted to it man. The world cup i refer to. Some matches have been dead boring, but matches such as aus vs japan, togo vs korea, germany vs costa rico and spain vs ukraine have been exciting, full of energy and capturing, if i'm allowed to put it that way. Haha! yea, and believe me, the swiss have ooh-lah-lah hot players. I am very very serious on that. i think at least 7 out of the 11 have that x-factor that reaches Elizabeth's superficial standard. But currently, my favourite player is Arjen Robben . No particular reason but its probably due to the way he scored that goal for Netherland. sweet =) best looking player (for now) goes to Torres Fernando!!! Oh yeaa, check out his pic lah. do NOT question my taste =)

Been reading Pride & prejudice. Rather interesting and i quite enjoy the Jane Austen kinda language. Hahaha. finishing the book soon and i particularly find great interest in this phrase [mr darcy to elizabeth(the character!)] " My affections and wishes are unchanged, but one word from you will silence me on this subject forever". classique =)

2006-06-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

2 days of walking and more walking!

08/06
House comm workshop in the morning! BIggy thks to Dorea, Ethelyn and Angela for gedding the cake for me! And to the 5 house comms who celebrated my b'day with me that morning!! Was quite a surprise for me, so yea thks loads!

Went home to get changed then went down to town to meet up with a friend. Caught "Benchwarmers"! i didn't even know such a show existed. It was pretty good, i laughed! For those who've been to the movies with me, i dun really "laugh out loud" in the cinemas or when i'm watching any show. So the show must be of SOME standard for me to actually laugh. hehe! So yea, enjoyed the show =)

Had dinner at Spagheddi's or however it's spelts. Had my favourite lagsana there! Super full after that. Ooh, and i was "forced" to eat calamari. Haha yea, so first time i was putting a squid into my mouth. It was ruberryyy. Lol yea, wasnt that bad lah =p

Walked ard to look for Sophia's b'day pressie.Yea, we were walking to and fro of Marina Square. The place is kinda bigg rightt. Got her gift from The Wallet Shop! I likee =) So mission accomplished! Was quite funny cos we didnt have anything in mind to get for her, so every gift we saw possible couldn't be decided on. Oh well, we found something rather suitable lah. Hahaha! Tried jay-walking at some big big road, but did not succeed. I didnt wanna die on the day i was born and i've yet to "live my life to the fullest"! okay that was random

Trained home together after that. Enjoyed the company, enjoyed ur presence =)

09/06
Initial plan b4 today was to go shopping with my parents. Then my mum told me ytd that dad couldn't take leave.So did econs revision in the morning. Then Dad called home at ard 11 to say his meeting was cancelled so could take half day leave. Haha left the house at ard 2 and headed down to town. Actually, we were pretty much stuck in Centrepoint (Robinson). hahaha

Started off at Coffee Bean cos my parents said they couldnt start walking without having their coffee. Okayyy, Had 2 muffins and huge cookie (everything was shared among us. hehe) with hot chocs. Felt super full mann! The drink was filled with too much milkkk! Fat fat fat! Anywayy, walked ard the boutiques there, saw a few tops but decided agst them cos most made me look too mature. Haha into Robinson, bought a pair of slippers. Super cute ;)

Bought a top and pants from m)phosis. Funny thing was, we didnt know the price of the pants until we went to pay for it. Ouch! Proceeded to buy make-up! Okay, not that much lah. Just a few things here and there that i didnt own myself. Hehe 2 more nail-polish to add to my collection. Ho ho ho! Bought the Red adidas Deodarent Spray--SENSUAL INSTINCT for women. Lol Dad bought me a pinkish Adidas watch!Birthday present..hehe really beautiful! Not used to having a watch on my wrist but i'll get used to it! Since its really pretty and for goodness sake, it's from my DAD. It's like a must-wear. haha!

Had dinner then drove home. I think my parents are really interesting lah..seriously. Sometimes people look at my sis and i and think where we get our "siao-ness" from, cos my parents appear quite serious, dad especially! BUT!!! you are wrong, my parents are jsut as SIAO! So thats where we get our genes frm. Loll

World cup in a few minutes time. Oohh! first time i'm staying up just to watch soccer. what an accomplishment! Tataa!!

2006-06-06T18:13:00.000+08:00

Some of the neoprints we took at PS. exactly the same place where we took neoprints on wenna's b'day LAST YEAR. *memories tt are gonna last a lifetime*

Sunday! Super cranky mood, was tired too. Ask Allison, she had to endure my nonsence nearly 3/4 of the day. Hehehe! Christine was down with dengue so we were intending to go pay her a visit at Gleneagles. Then, just as we were about to leave church, we heard that she was discharged alr. Thank God for that =) So allison and i were deciding what to do since we didnt really wanna go home. After much consideration, we decided to go CUT OUR HAIR!! Mum recommended some place at Kovan, rather ulu but we found it! Allison's the one with navigational skills. HAha! To cut the long story short, my long hair is GONE, and i have this really weird hair style now. Not that i dun like it but i dun think it suits me. It's the kinda china-doll fringe with back super layered. dunno how to describe it but i cant stand the fringe! it's in the wayyy..hahaha so i gotta pin it up every day =( looks quite retarded lehh..and those who've seen it say it looks messy. Hahah let's hope it grows longer b4 school reopens. Can't really tie it up either, cos its sooo layered, hair will start falling out from the band. SO yea, i got a weird hairstyle now. Allison cut her hair too! But she looks perfectly normal, tidier too.

Stayed home ytd, studied chem for a while then got distracted with slightest thing that went on. Fell aslp reading P&P, woke up after 2 hrs, idled ard, watched a combination of football and "so you think you can dance" at night. Was trying to watch P&P on youtube. My mum saw me doing that and went "go downstairs and borrow from the dvd station thing lah!" My mum's a genius eh? haha went down, and thank God, they had the show for rental. Came home, started watching the show at 9+ 10 pm. super nice/romantic/witty show. Elizabeth Bennet's character is *faints*..no words to describe..haha and Mr Darcy is *swoons*..cant describe it either..love it =)

Packed all the notes from the different subjectts into their respective files this morning. Whoo! Cleaned up my room..personal sense of accomplishment even though the room still looks A LITTLE messy. Went down to the Library at compass point to practice math(was freezing cold there!!). Home was too noisy with my cousins/nephew/nieces at my place. With IZ in m'sia for church camp and Ele in the UK i thought there was gonna be peace at home. BUT my nephew and cousin (both boys) are staying over for the WEEK! Plus ivan..goodness there's gonna be war.

Gonna have some workshop thing in school tmrw and thursday [b'day pls ): ] dun even know what we're doing and what this workshop is about sia. Hahaha oh well, gotta look at things POSITIVELY. YEa i'm sure

tata!

2006-06-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

Haven been in the mood to blog lately. Had school the whole week and it was torturous ( i'm not exaggerating pls). They were rushing thru all the new topics that are to be tested during the mid-yr-exams, and all of us hardly understand a single thing. worst was chem. it was MAD! Had two and a half periods (=2hrs) of chem going thru the entire tutorial of chem bonding. was so stoned after coming out of the LT.

Enough of that. Ele went off to the UK last night, family and i were at the airport to send her off at 10 plus at night?? was so cranky due to the lack of sleep as well as the 2 hrs of chem before that. Haha!yea had dinner at sakae before that, food wasnt fantastic and service was quite bad. Took the wrong orders from me, took so long to serve the food..aiyos! Okay stop complaining. Got my stomach full can alr. hehe! Got home at 11 plus, felt so lonely without ele lah! Let me share with you guys my very interesting story of what i did at night.

Decided to watch a "midnight movie" on my laptop in the comfort of my ari-conditioned room, under the blanket on my bed. Ideal atmosphere, with no one to disturb me, and at the same i wasnt disturbing anyone. Haha. So took out "Goal" dvd and happily watched it AGAIN. Yea, i watched the second half of the show some time ago, so the main aim was to watch the first half. Okay, so watched. Suddenly the whole com just turned off! Pressed the "power" button again and again, left the com to "rest" for a while then tried to switch it on again but to no avail. So i was thinking to myself " Die alr! COM CRASH!!!" so i had quite a difficult time sleeping, feeling so worried for the com. Guess what. When i woke up the next day, i realized the connection to the battery was out. HENCE, the com was not charging and HENCE the battery used up while i was watching the show and HENCE the com "crashed". Felt so retarded man..........!!

Anyway, out with e gals today!!!! Wm, wenna, charis and i headed down to CHINATOWN. decided to try out new places in singapore man. YEA RIGHT! went to plaza sing to walk ard and to find a shirt that could better match my skirt!! Hahaha went to pmilk and found this brown razor. Not bad, so bought it and changed on the spot! Partner bought a shirt too but we had to FORCE her to change into it. HEhehe took our "traditional" neoprints at action city again. Been ages since i last took those mini photos. Haha! Bus-ed down to far east to have dinner! Yea, had the taiwan mee-sua and some chicken thing. Sat at gelare like some illegal immigrants cos we only bought drinks from them and were eating our "outside" food. Haha luckily we were stuck at some corner man. Jalan-ed ard Far east. Didnt buy anything else, unfortunately! was so hesitant bout everything. Hmm.Trained home on the NEL with charis and wenna. We were sooo tired man!

Yep, service tmrw..I'm off to bed now!

2006-05-30T19:47:00.000+08:00

GP paper ytd wasn't too bad, but the topic i chose seemed to have been done by everyone too. Hahaha quite worrying but yea, just hope i can pass lah. Paper 2 was so-so, summary was like yuck and passage B was difficult to understand.

Had learning journey to HARBOURFRONT. Like, what kind of NE thing can we learn from there? Initial plan was to go to Arab Street, then i guess the weather kinda turned us off, so hot! So mr tan agreed that we go to harbourfront instead. Had our lunch at the food joint, sat there and listened to mr tan's army days stories. Hahaha quite interesting lah. Headed down to Shaw Centre to catch X-men III: The Last Stand with the rest of the J1 cohort. FABULOUS! Double thumbs up man! Although my all-time favourite (Cyclops) died, the show was still pretty much good without him. Luckily his death was a simple one, unlike the professors', where he exploded or smth. I would have screamed if that happened to Cyclops. Hahah my obsession. Crazy classmates were throwing popcorns ard, and they had nearly a tub-full of popcorns left after the show. Ashikin ate too much, she felt like vomiting. Lol!

Went to Suntec with some of them. I wanna go back to the Fountain of Wealth! Not that i wanna get lucky or anything, but the ambience is really nice at night. Sat there and stared at the laser stuff for a while, walked out, felt kinda tired so decided to go back. Trained home with yi cheng, was so drowsy on the train man.

One enjoyable day with S415! As small as we may be, but the spirit is as strong. Gonna have lessons this whole week. Whoo! Mid-yrs are coming alrr! Study study study! I gotta concentrate man. Keep having the tendency for my mind to start drifiting and thinking of other stuff during lectures and when i'm doing my hmwk. Hahaha. FOCUS!

If you ask me again, i'll say, yea, i do =)

2006-05-26T17:20:00.000+08:00

Second post of the day! See how "bo liao" i can get on a school holiday. Anyway, i DID go down for a swim. 4 laps and i got bored of it, not becos i had no strength okay! n it's not nice to swim in a bikini, uncomfortable lah. My main purpose going down was to tan!! I hope i accomplished, there's not much of a difference though. lol. The sun was goood. Read newsweek for a while b4 putting a towel over my head. Before i knew it, i was asleep.Woke up feeling like my head was stuck in a suana or smth.

Was thinking of some many things while swimming, the time when WM,wenna and i went to MJ's open house together, to the time i stepped into MJ for orientation, then lessons. Half a year is ending, time is literally flying past. May is ending, june is coming. This time last year, chinese O's madness! It was during this week that i was going for chinese tuition everyday at unty jessi's house, even wanted to stay over pls. It was chinese all the way! Thinking back, i miss chinese tuition sooooo much! Note: i do not miss CHINESE, i miss the tuition. Hahaha chinese is such a dread now, i dun look forward to it like i used to. Lol and during this time, i was preparing the list of names for my sweet sixteenth. Now, moving on to 17. AND I'VE GOT A SCH WORKSHOP ON MY BIRTHDAY. not again!! Last yr, had to go on some learning journey to jurong island when i was having a bbq party in the evening. Timing was super bad but everything turned out fine. Looks like this year cant even plan for anything cos i got no idea of the timing and stuff of the workshop.

Alrightys, shall be a nice daughter and help my mum with dinner =p

I guess i'm not giving up or letting go of anything. at least for now.

2006-05-26T10:50:00.000+08:00

Didn't have much time to blog this week, came home nearly after 7 everyday. Shdn't i be used to this JC timetable already? Hahaha maybe i just wasnt in the mood to blog. Everything's been going quite well since the last entry. Hmm, i'll leave the part about school work out.

my accomplishment this week was doing up the House notice board. BIG THANKS TO JUN KAI! for staying back with me on tuesday to do un-accompished stuff. Even though it was so freaking disorganised, and the fact that you had no obligations to help me, ur moral support means alot! Wednesday: had to go for some choir meeting (oh, did i mention, i'm ASL for alto. alamakkk..me?) then headed down to do up the notice board. ANOTHER SHOUT OF THANKS TO JOY & ETHELYN who stayed to do whatever they could b4 leaving for their own commitments. and of course to KENNETH & GORDON! for staying back all the way from the start to the end, to finish up what needed to be done. I couldn't have done it without all of you. definitely not a one man's job especially for someone who knows nuts bout ART.

The whole cohort went down to Jalan Besar Stadium ytd to support MJC soccer in the shodown btw them and VJC, it was an extremely close fight, but ultimately VJ claimed back their title (MJ won last yr..Hahaha). The atmosphere was there, the meridian spirit was there. Everyone stayed back to continue cheering for the guys despite the loss, doing the medley over and over again. Principal declared friday (tdy) a holiday at the stadium itself. It was a holiday not only to celebrate the soccer's team title as second. but also for the other CCAs that did well for their competitions. So yea, got a break tdy =)

I'm looking out of the window, contemplating if i shd go down and swim. The sun is out, there's no one in the pool, so temptingg! But i'm lazy....... HAHAHA i think i haven gone down to swim in AGES. maybe since the beginning of this yr, perhaps. i'll think about it =p

Thoughts-out-loud:
When the bitching and gossiping begins, u really dunno who u can trust. It's different in this environment, i hate to say. You look ard, it seems like everyone's wearing a mask, telling you things you wanna hear, telling others what they wanna hear about u. I wanna be able to trust you, i know i alr do, but the thing is..do you trust me? I wanna be different, i wanna be treated special.

2006-05-21T18:10:00.000+08:00

BIG WALK TODAY! woke up at like 5.30 am??!! that was such a turn-off, so earlly pls. Trained to kallang with gordon and we stoned there for about half an hour, cos everyone arrived much later than the expected time. Alamaks, next time we shall just be late with everyone else. Walked to the stadium after everyone arrived, and sat there to talk talk before moving off to the starting point to start. So everyone was so excited upon reaching the 1km mark. Lol, even stopped to take pics? haha triton was rather quiet tdy, i guess everyone was rather tired, including myself.

Anyway, we didnt complete the 10km, but finished 5? Haha we stopped at the 5km mark and went into suntec to sit ard like some illegal immigrants and later had "lunch" at BK. the houses went different ways after that. We went walking around Suntec, both towers! Yea, i was so tired and my mood was like crap. Didn't wanna be such a spoil sport so walked ard with the 4 of them, visiting carrefour, a few shops here and there. Enjoyable but would have been better if i wasnt so tired!

Off to do the notice board stuff and gotta run down to popular later on to get markers! waste time siaa, go there just to get them. lOl lazy...!!

Maybe the topic just shdn't be brought up. it complicates things.

2006-05-20T08:27:00.000+08:00

Met up with the jg tertiary cell ytd at marina bay for dinner. It was good good, just that i kinda regretted going there in my school uniform. Had to make sure that i didnt get any stains from the sizzling "bbq" thing. Haha felt as though i was eating meat the whole night? like meat allll the way. Had a great time fellowshipping as well. Tabled with bimin, vincent, gordon, ivan and samuel. the live prawns ( which we didnt cook) were quite fascinating and so were our all time favourite: man tous! But compared to the last time when i went there with 4B2, the man tou's this time were kind HUGE and rock-hard? haha

Gonna be home all day tdy. Loads of hmwk to finish and i've got the TRITON board to "decorate"!! N the teachers wanna check the board during mid-week =( Now, the only problem is that i didnt measure the length of the board, so how to prepare? go by estimation? sigh sigh!! I can do it! think positively.

Oh yes! I'm probably gonna get a gold for my Napfa! At least i hope so! Dun really know what are the criteria to get a Gold, but here are my results!
2.4km-->A
SBJ-->C (short of one cm to get a B..sad huh!)
Incline Pull-Ups-->C
Sit-ups-->A
Shuttle Run-->A
Sit&Reach-->C
SO, in all 24 pts. Is that a Gold? hahaha i nearly got a D for sit-and-reach. That's my worst station. Had to do that stn again after everything to try getting a C, and i did it! thks to ashikin's words of encouragement "come on! you kept ur nails for this stn right?! use them now!!" Hahah like wow! I cant stretch for nuts. Did until 41cm and stopped, at least i got a C.

Couldn't sleep the whole night. was feeling so uncomfortable. In fact, i was feeling kinda queasy when i was sitting on the bed with the laptop. dunno if it had to do with the food i ate, but doesn't seem like it. Was thinking bout some stuff the whole night, no matter how hard i tried to sleep, it didnt help. How can i not be confused after all that you told me? unexpected decision. Argh! I really didnt expect things to turn out this way. it made me cry cos i didnt know what to feel.

2006-05-18T20:13:00.000+08:00

I guess I finally decided to just let everything go. Met up with clovis tdy, super unexpected turn out, but I’m glad we decided to just walk ard compass point. He was supposed to be the one depressed and I was supposed to help him overcome his problem but halfway thru, the opposite happened. Hahaha guess I told him majority of the things that I was feeling, so many things to the extent that I suddenly realize whatever I was doing for you was mere stupidity. Why was I making myself stoop down to such a low level. I never knew I was doing all these things until I started talking to clovis. Perhaps he was telling me true opinion from a guy’s view. So yea. It’s off my chest!!

You’re out of my life. Why was I living these few mths like a walking zombie, when I got nothing back in return. Why did I make myself think you meant so much to me, when to you, I was merely a friend.

so yea. Clovis was outside MJ waiting for me to end school tdy. His love life is hmm..rather interesting! Was great catching up after Music lessons at TKGS ended after the O’s. Been some time since I last saw him, pretty much the same lahh..heh it’s either he shrank or I grew taller. Ho ho ho, or maybe his pants are just baggy or something. I went home feeling much better, having a much clearer opinion of all the stupid things I was doing.

I’m not sure if I’m gonna get over you totally. Everything happening’s too fast. Hmm, time, take control.

Napfa 5 items tmrw!! Woo hoo, gonna be so exciting. Darn, I wanna do more pull-ups, I wanna jump further, I wanna stretch further!!!! Going down to marina south to meet the tertiary cell for dinner. Hehe, exciting! Deciding if I shd stay in school and do as much hmwk as I can, then go down to meet them directly from pasir ris. Or if I shd go home, change out of uniform (which also means I’ll probably not doing anything if I come home) then go down to meet them. I think I’ll just stay in school, I’ll bathe during recess =p

Loads of hmwk waiting for me =)

P.s did i mention. you probably dun even know this post and all the past posts were about you. what an irony.

2006-05-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

Mother's day on sunday. Kor and ele prepared dinner for mum..me? Not inclined in that area lah..i helped to wash up after everything! Thank goodness we have a dishwasher so i only had to wash up the oily pans and clean up the stove and stuff. At least i played my part right! Lol..

Hmm..SPA went quite okay on monday. At least i knew what to put into the burette (haha!) without having to ask xinyun (my lab partner!). But i answered some of the questions wronglyy and they were the most impt man questions.sigh sigh!! But other than that..it was relatively okay lahh =p

2.4km run tdy!! It was baddd. Okay wait wait..must talk bout the good things first. firstly, the weather was quite good, not exactly what i was hoping for but at least it wasnt THAT hot. Relatively okay. secondly, my timing was below 14mins! nearly crossed the timing (phew!), so yea that entitled me my first A!! at least for this time's NAPFA. Past few yrs, i think the only A i can get is for sit-ups. like duh! who cant do that. =p SO..5 items is gonna be on friday. i need major help for sit-and-reach and for incline pull-ups as well!! suck at this two..big time!! Anyway, the bad part was i actually had to stop and walk for a while during the run. had stiches during 2nd or 3rd round and it didnt go away at all..so i had to stop to walk for about 50m about three times before running again. kinda sad huh! oh well, managed to attain what i wanted to who cares about the bad part. HAHA

choir elections tdy. some speeches were..rather interesting. thk goodness i had the chance to "take my revenge". Haha shd have set my question more difficult for that person durin Q&A. Lol i'm kidding lah..i'm so nice pls. Yup, so handed in our votes and stuff, ended choir earlier than usual. duh~ then there's gonna be some investiture (is that how u spell it?) tmr..sianess! hope it doesnt last too long. haha

chinese test on thursday! doesnt sound easy at all =( i shall just "try my best". Hahaha shall try reading up before the test lah. For now, some sleep is needed after the run! oh..did i mention i bathed in sch today. Hahaha! first timer lah..the feeling is so shiok after all the sweat from PE. woohoo!Tata!

2006-05-14T14:44:00.000+08:00

hmm. there's nothing much to blog about actually, but i'm using a "unused" laptop in the house, so finding something to do. My parents are watching some korean seriel called " da chang jin"? I think it's on channel u every week night, but my dad bought the whole series from shanghai..haha my mum was so happy pls. She wun need to stay up to watch anymore. Lols..

Sigh! got a GP essay to do later.. hopefully i can still rmb all the points i thought about. Came back frm church about 2 hrs ago, and i'm still sitting ard watching the series. Billy Elliot spoke at service today..all about having the faith to trust and believe. Was really good. Hmm, had quite an interesting time during expressoul grp, doing up mother's day card. Hehehe had yong tau fu for lunch after that. Wasnt too bad since we haven had lunch there for a few weeks. Hopefully the following week we can find a better place to have lunch, quite sian of the food ard that area.

Wun be going to church next week, thanks to the 10 km big walk thing we're gonna have!! Man, who wants to walk 10 km siaaaa. Hahaha, time for exercise lah. Speaking of that, Napfa 2.4km is on tuesday!!Crap.. 1) weather must be nice 2) no cramps/stitches halfway! 3)shoelace doesnt untie while i'm running With all these, i SHD be able to get an A for this. HAHA may be a B wouldn't be too bad lah, but I WANT MY A! i trained hard for it okay..hehe!

SPA exam tmrw! Need to revise or i'll forget everything man. And there's a whole week of chinese exam to think about. SIAN AH! okay, must think positively..think positively! That's been quite drilled into my head..haha by you-know-who! I'm going back to watch "da chang jin" then essay time!

Sometimes i wanna know what you're thinking, but when i think again, maybe i'd rather not.. enjoying the little things we're doing together now. So yea, perhaps it's better for things to just remain this way. =) thks for always being there to hear me out, u know u're appreciated, my friend

2006-05-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

So we did go down to pulau ubin tdy!suaku me was there for the first time pls..took a super old looking boat from changi village and there we were. Had such a homely feel to that place, so many shops to rent bikes from! Haha that was the fascinating part, deciding which shop to rent the bikes from. One shop read "Whole day--$2..onwards" All of us were tricked pls. $2 for the whole day was rather impossible. So it was $8 bucks for our bikes. Casper (lao da!), may ann, andrew, ele and me got our bikes and we were off! The vans that drive just next to u while you're on the bike is freaking scary man!! It was like sooo near to us lah.. Weather was pretty good, until the part where we were going back, then it started to get cloudy and started drizzling.

Yep, so it was a fulfilling trip. Never been out with my cousins, much lest meet up with them or anything. Kinda tired after the cycling though..and cycling uphill is no fun!! makes my legs ache..haha!! and i'm always the slowest when we go down-slope?! the 4 of them will just zoom past me while i'm like going down, holding the brakes??Hahaha i'm scared =x

there we are..the 5 of us =)

the 3 hot babes! HAHA

2006-05-11T18:20:00.000+08:00

Barry Manilow Lyrics - I Write the Songs
I’ve been alive forever,
And I wrote the very first song.
I put the words and the melodies together,
I am music,
And I write the songs.

I write the songs that make the whole world sing.
I write the songs of love and special thing s.
I write the songs that make the young girls cry.
I write the songs, I write the songs.

My home lies deep within you,
And I’ve got my own place in your sole.
Now, when I look out through your eyes,
I’m you’g again, even though I’m very old.

Chorus

Oh my music makes you dance
And gives your spirit to take a chance,
And I wrote some rock ’n’ roll so you can move.
Music fills your heart,
Well, that’s a real fine place to start.
It’s from me it’s for you,
It’s from you, it’s from me,
It’s a world wide symphony.

Chorus

I am music, and I write the songs.

Beautiful song isnt? Heard it on the the Oprah Winfrey Show, and they had Barry Manilow as some special guest. Hahaha that guy is a legend lah, he's been in the industry for nearly his whole life, and yet still sooooo successful, appealing to all the OLD and YOUNG women/men out there.

So..this week passed ultra fast (what's new!) and i must say, choir concert was a success! we managed to reach 100% sale of tickets in one week! so yea, first official MJC choir performance.. wasnt as nerve-wrecking as i thought it would be! First person i saw when i stepped on stage-- KEE WEN MINN. nearly bursted out laughing when i saw her..lol! so glad she came =) my favourite song--SWEET HONEY-SUCKING BEES! i know the title is kinda ridiculous, but the song is niceee! Don't really know whats nice about it..but yea love it! The whole concert went on quite fine i guess, musical was good too! our "hald-jackets" fooled everyone eh! not bad not bad...

Went home straight after briefing and all, kinda tired lah..so didnt join the rest for dinner/supper. stoned home on the train with ur company =) it's all these little things that make me appreciate u soo much, but sometimes i wonder if you're feeling the same way. perhaps not. So yea, reached home at ard 11pm, unpacked, BATHED!, packed my stuff for the next day and drifted into lala land.

So that was ytd.

Back track to last saturday (before this saturday comes!).

Usual choir in the morning. Went to priscilla's house to watch the electionss! Hahaha rachel's family was there too. Waited for some time before the results started being announced. Uncle marcus is super funny lah!! He started taking out champagne when the opposition won the hougang area. We were like !!!! so well prepared huh!! Yea, watched for an hr plus, then my parents were like "tired lahh". so we left at ard 12 plus..and we were gonna have service the next day anyway. so yea. fun lah, never took much notice bout elections before, so this was pretty exciting.

Back to the present.

Will be going to palau ubin (most probably!) tmrw with the cousins! Woohoo! Cant wait to just chill out with them, get to know them better also la. So yup, gotta do all my hmwk tonight!! which is somewhere now? *toodles!

the little things you say and do =)

2006-05-03T20:18:00.000+08:00

Just got back from choir practice at SIGLAP..that's like far far away in east coast pls. We had full dress rehearsel, guess it went PRETTY well. hahaha, not really sure what are the expectations for choir, and what more, i havent ever been to a choir concert in my whole entire life before. Oh well, the concert will be next wednesday and somehow, i just got this sense of hapinesss in me? Thats probably becos once concert is over, HOPEFULLY, the practices will lessen too. It's getting so overwhelming. We're even having practices this saturday, a supposed PUBLIC holiday =( and i alr made plans to meet up with my PW grp, looks like all hafta change again.

Hmm, so today's house elections weren't that bad afterall. was pretty nervous bout it initially, then when it was getting nearer to my turn for speech, was pretty calm alr. haha! dun think i really spoke well though. Oh well..each time i run for this kinda thing, i tell God to take the lead and do what He wants best for me. If He doesn't want me to be in this committee. i dun wanna feel defeated or anything because I know He probably has better plans for me.." plans to prosper me, and not to harm me". So yea, if i get in..i'll do my best! =)

Oh, did i mention choir is on friday too? as well as next monday and tues? AHHH!!!! and there's econs test on mondayyy!!! Better start studying alr. SIGHH!! On a lighter note, i had quite a fun 2 mins running in the rain with a pathetic umbrella with xavier today. Hahaha we walked with the umbrella in front of us okay? Thks to xavier's ingenious idea..but it did help lah, our FACES DIDNT GET WET.

maybe i'm too demanding, expectating a little too much?

2006-04-30T18:46:00.000+08:00

After attending nearly 10 yrs of sports day in PL, i realize i only joined one track event so far and apart that, i've never been involved in the whole event. Always at the stands attempting to cheer =p well, this year was different becos i was involved in MJC's collosuem! all the cheerleadingg practices was worth it. New friends i made, closer relationship formed =) Though we didnt win the trophy, we knew we put in all our efforts and it was worth it! Its not the end that counts but the process that leaves the most lasting impression.

2006-04-26T14:45:00.000+08:00

math test is coming! & i'm definitely not confident about it =( i seem to always be lagging behind in everythingg..seriously. It doesnt refer only to my studies..even with friends and relationships, i seem to be lagging behind in knowing things, lagging behind to hear bout something that happened, and even when it comes to you..i'm still behind.

Anyway, we had cheerleading rehearsel ytd with the other houses. TRITON rocks lah!! Hehe, at least we had something to show right? Atlas's stunts are POWER!! like really really good, done with much professionalism. yep i'm sure the rest of the houses have something good to show too =)) cant wait for colossuem, whether we're doing it in the hall or at the track, it's still as exciting! Met jun wen, ruihong and another guy ( i missed choir and my president look pissed) after their choir practice, and we decided to cab home since i was tired from cheerleading and they were tired after singin? Haha was so soooo tired, i didnt know where i lived..ruihong had to give directions. hilarious.

didnt go to school tdy..wasnt feeling well the whole night. body aches and everything! intended to go back for the second half of school to attend econs lecture but at 8.45 am, my C.T called and this is how the convo went.

Hi, are u in school?
Err, nope i'm at home but i think i'm going back later
Going back where later?
school?
what happened to you?
oh i'm not feeling well..
so u overslept?
no..i didnt oversleep. i wasnt feeling well
Okay, i'd rather you dont come back at all. It's more troublesome if u come back and there is alot of admin stuff to handle.
But i want to attend econs lecture!
Yea right
Really!!!
Stay at home and give me an MC or parents letter tmrw.

Super funny lah..so i missed today's lessons and i missed choir practice again. Craps. Shall use my time to study for math test and do up all my hmwkk!!! I need to catch up catch up and catch up! tests coming up every week!! oh mann.. God, give me the strength from you!!

i'm putting ytd behind me. dangling on a string of hope. yet loving everything about u

Us at the esplanade rooftop. we're in the middle of it! lol!

mimicking what the couples were doing there.

Allison and i at ECP. we walked 45 mins to rent this ugly bike for an hr.

HMC cpt's ball competition JG vs MG--a draw!

2006-04-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

i survived this week!! okay, so maybe my week wasn't as busy as some others, but compared to my normal week, this week was kinda chiongg! Every day i'm staying back till late either because of cheerleading or because of choir. at least i love what i'm doing =)

Choir has been alright..preparing for the concert. Practicing the concert songs, going thru the musical. Cheerleading is pretty fine too, 90% perfected the dance alr. We tried the lifting and pyramids and i dare say we're pretty good, considering that nearly all us haven't tried cheerleading b4. Haha! i love what i'm doing..even if its soooo tiring or tough at times and that makes the load a whole lot easier.

We had cheerleading practice on saturday, but i had to go for choir. So i was running from cheerleading to choir to cheerleading(choir lunch time) and back to choir. They practiced from 8 to 4 okay! just doing the dance ruotine, cheers and lifts. POWER! while i was happily singing and singing. So we managed to go out to Macs for lunch/dinner at about 4 plus after they ended cheerleading and i ended my choir. studied out till about 9 then headed home.. bathed and plonked on the bed to sleeepppp

didn't attend service this morning cos i was helping irene cheorograph some dance steps with ribbons for the chinese service. the song was super fast which made every step go like twice as fast as what we usually did. hilarious..

math test this friday and i told myself i hafta start studying from TODAY! hopefully i can finish everything by tonight :( so short time lahhh. but i dun think i got much of a choice becos my week will be packed with activities after school again. Hopefully all this madness will be over after colossuem and even lesser madness when choir concert is over. =p

we're starting to talk so much more and i'm loving every single minute of it. everytime i think of you, "I know I can't be that far from you, If we're both looking on the same side of the moon"

2006-04-21T00:36:00.000+08:00

my week has been superrr bz!!!!! cheerleading has been added to my load to these 2 weeks, in preparation for Colloseum (sport's day) that is next week and we're gonna have inter-house cheer-leading. so yea. just try imagining me doing cheerleading. joke of the century lah!the dance ruotine is really cool (and difficultt!!) though..so are the stunts and pom poms!!! goodness.. i wonder what i've gotten myself into. Haha!

this is just a random entry.

enjoying the time we're spending together =)

leon

2006-04-18T16:08:00.000+08:00

hi. this is me. i am at the library. she is doing chinese project. i am slacking. the picture attached is a little indication of what we are doing. see ya.

Illusions ___* All the world's a stage

2006-04-18T16:05:00.000+08:00

Illusions ___* All the world's a stage
hi

2006-04-16T19:49:00.000+08:00

Hmm..this week passed uber fast. Before i knew it, the weekends are well..gone. again. Some nasty stuff happened this week in school. Maybe i'm just too sensitive or emotional, or simply think too much. Thankfully, i had my ah gong and ah mah (both gals =p) to listen and let me whine my way thru choir practice. love them =)

Allison came over on friday to do the gifts for the baptism pple. we never expected to have such difficulty stuffing gel into test-tubess!! Yea, it was messy. and painting the alphabet macaroni black, applying varnish on it. stuffing them into the test tubes. Whoo! but everything came out so nice! At least the both of us felt that it was nice lah. All our hard work mannn. Been a really long time since she last came over to my place, but i think its a longer time since i went to her place? haha had loads of fun laughin at the slightest things. and allison taught us that if u put a strand of hair at a flame, it starts to crackle and frizzle up. Yea, so imagine us trying to find hair on the grd in my room and burning them with the candles that we used for wax. LOL

Choir on saturday. This time it lasted until 4++. The morning was kinda wasted though. Cuz some of us were not involved in that scene, so we were like sitting ard and getting super restless (especially me..ah gong and ah mah were still pretty much "sane"). Went to the airport to study chem till 9+ then headed home.

Sunrise service + baptism at ECP this morning. Was reallyy goood. I think it's the first time our church actually has a baptism service at the beach. awesome. big big congratulations to Ivan, Sophia, Stefan, Adriel, Zhuang Ying, Amos, Becky, Bobby, Irene, Gordon, Cheryl and Lincoln. You guys are great =) Went cycling after that. We walked 45 mins to the bicycle kiosk!!!! Goodness..and we took about 10 mins to cycle back to where our parents were. SIAN TIAO! Lol that's a new word i learned from gordon. retarded lah. Anyway the cycling made alot of us realize how unfit our legs are. Ho ho ho

Off to dinner =)

This weekend was wonderful. the time we spent together that day was indecrible. how i wish the whole week could last this way. but somehow, deep in me, i know it's quite impossible

2006-04-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

tdy was just bad. everything i thought of u, just all went away tdy. the worst part is that you're just so ignorant bout it. i wanna get rid of every thought and memory of you..like right now.

2006-04-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

Look what wanyi said online to me just ytdd

we'll leave behind a life and time * says:
haha wow yes! anywayyyy! going to bed now :] on behalf of 4of us the animal kingdom, i'd like to say, thank you for being sucha good eg for us to follow. we'll train to be like you for the remaining days in the exco, haha which is about a month or so. thank you "elizabeth eng"! (: *

So sweet pls =) She logged off and said bye str8 after saying that so i didnt manage to give a response but GAL, I'M REALLY TOUCHED!

Hmm performance on saturday night was goody. Tho i suffered blisters due to inexperience of wearing court shoes. Never EVER wear court shoes for walking if they're new. Like SERIOUSLY. I just walked from my house down to the mrt and viola! the blisters are there already there. was literally oww-ing my way to S.C.H and back home after the event. We sang quite alright i guess, i mean, i've never ever sang in a choir (real/fake) so dunno what is good and bad lah. haha! We were all in BLACK..my 2 seniors and i looked like some waiters from some banquet when we were going home on the NEL.

Went to church late on sunday. I was actually going to be "on time" lehh, cos i took a train down instd of following my dad's car. But while i was approaching serangoon stn, got a call frm dad and i was thinking " does he wanna offer to pick me up from farrer park stn". Lol! Nehh, he asked me to go home to take iz's hp. i was like !!!!!!!!!!!! Yea, cos they were going out to buy equipments for church after service, so needed to communicate and blah blah. Reached church at what, 9.20? Sermon started a little late anyway..so didnt miss anything.Started to get hungry and guess what. This kid came in to the sanctuary carrying a hashbrown. AHH, was so hungryy and i had a craving for cookies. LOL trained home after lunch, rushed PI, but only completed 3/4 of it? kinda sad huh.. i gotta do the rest later.

Chatted with my CLIQUEE online! Yea, back to the sec sch days..which were just..last year? seems so long ago alr?! =x Yea, now there's only WM and i who are..well..more FREE. Haha if u ged what i mean lah..Our mum's are worried for us!!!! Haha we shall go boy-scouting soon lah huh! well..'soon' as in a few mths from now? Heh..hopefully our timetables will be somehow alligned so that we have at least one day we can keep for our "catch-up/gossip" session. Lol! Miss the recessess together mann! Either we'll all be stoning in our own worlds, or we'll be laughing like mad.

Got a GP essay to complete as well as my PI! woohooo, its gonna be a looong nighT!

It just keeps coming and going. trying not to think about it but it's not really workin?

2006-04-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

i'm a super bad student. i've got a wholleeee load of hmwk in my bad. YET, i went shopping at compass point for nearly 3 hrs jus now, came back and stoned in front of the com b4 deciding to blog. SCO concert tmrw! Oh yea, that was the main reason i actually went down to CP, to buy court shoes. we're gonna have our own MJ practice frm 9am-4pm then go down to SCH at 8pm for th performance. Cant imgaine what time the whole thing will end =( but thank God i'm not playing piano on sunday or i'll probably freak? LOL

Let's see what stoopid hmwk and assignments i have. Hmm. GP essay, Math Functions tutorial, Chem Redox Tutorial 4, Prelimanary Ideas for PW, points for debate next week. And probably more that i cant rmb. Hahaha and i have to complete all this tonight and half of sunday! Goodnessss

Plenty of pple's birthday this month! Shout out: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Germaine, Felicia, Avonne, Michelle, IvanEng, RachelTan, Vincent, Gordon. Sorry if i missed out any of you! But right in front of the com, i cant think of anyone else =p

Oh yes! my family has decided to go for church camp! Ele will be in england though..time FLIES man.. i was in england TWO years ago. madness, seems just last year? Back to the main pt.. probably rooming with sophia and one more unknown person (haven found her yet. Haha). Not many youths going though. studying for A's and O's, poly pple, working pple (my 'old old' frens). Yea.. so we'll see how it goes at church camp lah.

I'm off to do those hmwkk!!

all this time, and i still cant feel what you're feeling. because of you, Ican no longer think straight. my minds all clouded up with you.

2006-04-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

I need to breathee!! This week (3 dayss??) has been such a rush and tdy's probably the only day that i actually come home early (6.30pm??) to use the com, do up my hmwk. Quick review of my week passed and ahead. Monday--had choir at S.C.H [tanjong pagar] after school at 7.30pm and it ended at like 9 plus? Tuesday--Choir in school this time, till 8pm [sing sing sing] Wednesday--choir again. dance moves and more singing. Thursday--Choir at S.C.H again at night. Friday--NO CHOIR! stay back to watch soccer match =p ACJC vs MJC! Okay i'll have to think twice about that BECAUSE...Saturday--Choir in school from 9am to 4pm. Choir performance at S.C.H at night. Seriously, i've never ever ever sang so much in my life. Like everyday?!!

Anyway...match on sunday was GOOD! Even though it was a draw, but still everyone had fun! I was on the first team to go in (since there was four 7 mins game). Yup, first match, we beat them 6-2. second match, was it a draw? Yea...then cant rmb what happened in the 3rd match but 4th game, first team went in again. My legs suddenly became wobbly? Hahaha determining factor. I was marking unty lily pls.. and i screamed at her =p not intentionally of course. Too carried with game and i thought the ref didnt see her snatch the ball from me. LOL funny lah, i went to apologize after the game of course. TRIED marking cindy for a while, she's too fast lah. ex PE teacher pls..how to fight. Was a really good match with the adults, and i'm sure the effort the youths put in have not gone to waste! (practicing every sunday after service) Luckily jon tan came along to help us coordiante our subs..or we'll proabably be super messy. WELL DONE EVERYONE! Hopefully there'll be another match soon =)

Had an econs test tdy..i'm gonna fail BADLY :( I was so depressed and probably in a state of shock after the paper. I've never ever stared so blankly at a piece of paper before (probably for amath in sec school). It was seriously BAD. Was actually on the verge of crying cos i was so stressed and tiredd! But obviously didnt. What wouuld the class be thinking man? SIAO!

Yep, so thats about it? hmm..till the weekend! a new song i fell in love with AFTER hearing it like soooo many times.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyesI don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

falling in love with u is hell madness

2006-03-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

tdy was greatt!hmm actually nothing much happened, but one of the good news was that i didnt have choir practice!Not that i don't like going for choir, but when it's on a sunday, it's quite a turn off? Yea, anyway there was choir ytd. Learnt the first chinese song. Lots of ahh-ing and ooh-ing and no chinese words at all (phew!).

Waited for dad to come home from iceland this morning. He didnt have the house keys so i waited for him and we went to church together at 9.30am..a good half hr b4 service ended. But i think the last half hr was the main thing.

7 qualities of a true friend: Protects, Listens, tells u the truth, overlooks your faults, carries your burden, shares common interest/experience and shows genuine love. Yep, so the question was :How much of a true friend are you to someone else? It's hard isn't it..?to be able to have that 7 qualities and perhaps even more.

Was supposed to go to joann's place to 'nua' but last minute changes, we went to PS to have lunch! Long time since we went for lunch at somewhere AWAY from church area..quite sick of the food there alr. Heh, went to cartel. Met up with irene and eujin. Had a really grt time with the 7 of them (namely: Joann, irene,eujin, marc, gordon, allison and samuel)..laughed like mad the whole time. Eujin gave us a treat! aww thks man u rawkk!Walked ard PS for a while. Allison and i were FORCED by marc to find some VERY girly stuff for his friend's b'day and we were like being so nice and all. Nearly died. In the end, he ended up with a pair of slippers. Ha!

Irene and eujin sent me home!Love my 'old' friends =p cos they nv fail to make me feel EVEN younger! love it! Managed to finish up my chem tutoriall (with a lot of reference to notes from the first 2 mths.) sense of accomplishmentt =))Back to school tmrww!

when love attacks, how do u overcome it? i dun wanna fall into this pit that i cant get out from

2006-03-25T10:44:00.000+08:00

Lectures have been on the full run for a week now and i missed so many of then =( And the supposedly very impt (and most boring) lecture, PW, i attended one out of three or four lectures. Missed a few lectures on monday cos i had to leave early to PL for our last practice for the SEAMEO performance. It was o-kay..but everyone didn't seem to be in the mood to play much, including me! Mel Chua was sicckkkk plss..so i was like playing her bells for the first song as wellll.

Missed more lectures on wednesday.Went down to toa payoh with other supporters to go cheer for the badminton championn!! Yep, first time going down to watch a LIVE match. Ha so exciting =p MJ arrived championship's! Was so cool lahh. We beat RJ pls..Ho ho Ho! MORE lectures missed on Thursday cos i left school at 10 plus. and the 3 periods were as follow : COMPASS talk, LIBRARY talk, free period. Somebody pls ask me why i went to school.. spasm mann.

Went back to PL, went to eat in the canteenn! probably our very last time? Heh..left for SMU. Ms Goh was really nicee. why? she asked all the "graduated from PL" gals to just carry all the gals barang, their bags and etc. while they carried the tables, cushions, BELLS. loll she even gave us a treat tcc during the break =p i see the very very jealous faces. Lol relax gals, u'll have ur chance! Hahaha had rehearsels. the organizers actually wanted to split us up? like put the different sections at different part of the hall....HAHA so the bass setion went up on stage, and the rest, one looooonngggg row behind the dinner table.crazy lah, the sound was so dispersed. in the end, we squeezed everyone onto stage. quite hilarious.

Two other grps performed, STOMP and some bboyz thing. See the LARGE contrast between their performance and ours? Ours was so gentle and soothing, theirs was LOUD NOISE. Haha but the STOMP's performance was rather interesting. 5 of them were using odd objects (placstic trash can, pan, pail..etc) to make a rhythm/beat? sounded quite nice, just didnt seem appropriate for such a formal dinner. Minister of Education was there too..he's TALL. Ministers of Education from a few other countries were there as well, with many many delegates and stuff. was a really long day but everyone had a really good experience. Met Ivan Tan there! Lol..he was going for lessons while i was still stuck in SMU's library.

was elected as cg rep. Unfair election lahh, i wasn't even there when they were having electionss! Oh well, it's gonna be for 5-6 weeks only..until the elect the chairperson for class. So.. we shall see how it goes lah. I've got choir practices today and TMRW! On a sunday lehh.. what a turn-off.

2006-03-15T16:28:00.000+08:00

Hols have been coming along just fine =)) went back for handbells on monday and today. i think tdy's practice was muchhh more productive lah cos everyone (except one) was presenttt!! yep, everything sounded quite in place. so just give us a few more practices and we're ready for the performancee! woohooo~

alright, nothing much to update. haha just a song i loveee!!

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead Of her,
I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you.
Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love, me.

Dun just scan through the words! each sentence is oh-so-meaningful! =))

2006-03-13T16:57:00.000+08:00

Okay, i've finallyyy found the time to update, which is now, during the march hols. Pheww~ Week before orientation2, there was HEAPS of planning, meetings, settling shirts, making identities and placards..so many things to do and in so little time! we were literally having a race agst time. It was scary.

First time i was given the task to go make shirts. I was likee..okay, this shdn't be that difficult lah, since there was the design and everything alr. And yup! thank God, it wasn't THAT difficult, but the only bad part: the factory was at UBI..yea, still got no idea where that place is lah...hahaha! Thank God the shirts came out fine, although it was a super bright orange, that made us quite luminous in the dark. Hahaha

Orientation 2 was better than what i expected. From what previous OGLs and seniors said (abt O2 being super boing and stuff), it was really quite a surprise to me. I was taking Vega 3! Yep, they're reallyy reallly nice and co-operative. some other ogls were complaining that their fresshies didnt wanna cheer and didnt wanna do anything. But at least mine were willing to do cheers and at least run abit during MMM at sentosa =)) Yep, i'm posted to vega8 though, back to my O1 orientation grp. Khad's posted to vega5. which probably means we're gonnna be in different classess=SADDDD!!!!

We went to school on friday, and there was the confirmed subjects we were taking on the whiteboard. So we hurried over to check our combi then we saw the number 402 on both our columns and we went "YAY! we're in the same classs!!". then someone heard us saying it, and went "hellooo..that's ur subject combi number". like sooooo embarrassing lah!! felt like such iddiots..cheap thrill for less than a minute.

Was games IC for WnW. Qutie fun to have pple coming over to ur station and making them super wet, throwing bombs at them and most of the time, they cant take their revenge cos games IC would be holding on to their score sheets. *evil grin* MMM was fun too, ran (walked) ard sentosa for about 5 hrs, looking for stations, completing tasks..blah blah! But it was then that i had the chance to know my OG pple better.

Campfire was the most nerve-wrecking one as we had to prepare an item, and my house was assigned to do a dance. With the theme "supernatural". Yea, like that's gonna be easy. Hahaha anyway, it turned out not bad. The house really did it well, cos they were given like abt 3 hrs to learn the dance which was cheorographed on the day itself in abt an 1 hr? Yea, there were some of the ogls and 3 gals from dance society who cheorographed the moves on the spot.Really niceee!! We ended the dance on a superr high note by geddin everyone to get up and dance to "Rhythm of the Night".. so funn!!

Had debrief until 11, the rest went out to makan..i came back home cos i'm still under curfew. Rahhsss!! was really tired anyway. slept till 12 the next day. Spent my whole day online (what's new)..was abt to sleep at 11 when i received a phone call from this guy i just got to know during orientation. the issue: his gf broke up with him. LOL i was laughin my head off and surprised why he called me. kept telling him to keep things cool and not try to commit suicide. hehh..was quite retarded lah, during that short convo we had.

Captain's ball/netball training. didn't think it was really productive, but oh well, all in the name of fun lah! Then, i think i pushed myself a little too hard this week, lack of sleep, so many activities. Felt sick at ard 6pm, went to sleep, i think i was having a fever, but didn't bother to check lah. Mum gave me panadol at ard 11, cont'd sleeping till 9 this morning. the fever's gone, but my thoat hurts when i swallow. Yikes!

Yep, that's about it lahh.

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

2006-03-01T16:41:00.000+08:00

Sunday
Went down to pasir ris crest sec to watch the guys play agst a new team. we were trashed 4-0! Yea, quite sad..but it's just a game! and we cant possibly be winning every game we play in eh? On our side, we gals had our captain's ball/netball training at the court outside church. Was pretty good, but i think we can be a little less scared of the ball? Hahaha, right now i think i'm only scared of pushing pple down or something. took 81 down to kovan to meet my family for sakae! Ate like a pigggg.......

Monday
We did something really "interesting" during GP. Our teacher wanted to see if we youths were considered to have a carefree life. Hence, she made us come up with a time-table and write out everything we did last week. My goodness..... i have soo many things going on man. Maybe i shd start doing at every end of the week, reflect on how much time i've wasted doing wu liao de shi.

cabbed down to PL after school, wasted TEN bucks man!! When i reached there, all the "pple my age" were not even there, apart from qian ru. Alamak, and i thot i was gonna be late....... We played the second song. Sweettt! Wanyi cldn't rmb her notes. HAHAHA kidding lah, she jus needed time to figure them out and on my part, i kept playing her notes, and not giving her the chance to figure them out. LOL sorry babe!

Tuesday
some pple jus want the attention. Whatever. Re-learned mass dancee! I nearly died dancing with pinafore mannn!! it was soooo freakingggg hoootttt!!!! i was perspiring like a mad pig! did the couple dance with yi cheng. Goodness he's so cartoon plss! Yea, anyway couple dance is still a BIG headache for me, cant get any of the steps right. Heh heh..

went for choir after that. Learned another weird song, but it was fun =)) Ended at ard 8, took 89 back with ethelyn,yong yi and some guy that i dunno besides talking to him once on the mRT. hahaha

Wednesday
Release of 'A' lvl results tdy, so we were released early at 12. Wen minn and mun chee came to visit MJ again..ahahah wm has her eye candy alr..Fast eh? Hahaha, mun chee went back to SR for her volleyball theng while wm and i went isetan to look for wenna. Haha, went to eat a super big lunch at LJ..phewww! I'm eating like seriously nobody's biznesssss!! Jalaned ard the whole afternoon, missed choir. HAHA came home at ard 4 plus. so now i'm slacking my time away.. AGAIN. yayness! okay. i shall TRY scanning some of my recently taken neoprints. heh heh!

there u go!

2006-02-25T20:14:00.000+08:00

Went back to PL on monday to play the bells! =))) okay i'm still really excited about going back for more practices and all. It was a blast on monday..we managed to finish the song within TWO HOURS!!! i think that is really a miracle cos i haven played/heard the song for nearly half a year alrr. still quite lost at some parts of the song, but i think it SOUNDS quite okay! Yea, we were listening to qian ru's mp3 and trying to figure our "lines" out at the same time, and the method actually worked okay.. hahaha we're gonna play chinese song next week. OohhHH cant wait! i think i shd be able to rmb MOST of the "lines" but hmm..i think wanyi n i will have quite a difficult jus thinking of how to arrange the bells in the right order. Yep, cant wait for the next prac that is alr coming!!!

Went back to school this morning to try out the games to be carried out for telematch. GUYS ARE ROUGHHH. and this feeling is most supported when gals and guys are playing captain's ball together..My goodness, the way the pass the ball is like as if they are lifting a feather man. I mean, they throw the ball ACROSS the "court" pls.....and a guy SAT on my hip. He was right in front of me, and he jumped up to block the ball that was passed to me. And he LANDED on my hip.. i was likeee.............no reactionnn. Anyway, the whole game was relatively fun apart from that.

Ben, mereith, khad and yong yi came over to my place and brought their lunch up to my place to makan. hahaha! yea, ben's shoes and yong yi's socks were stolen!!!!!! shocking plsssssss. what happened to security in condominiumssss!Anyway, Ben and mereith stayed till about 6. we x-boxed the whole afternoon away!! Ben wins me in EVERY single match pls, we were playing some "street-fighter" thing lah..so he always wants to play with me, cos he knows he'll win. HAHA yea anyway, ben went home with iz's seriously too small slippers =p

Another week to second orientation! hopefully things will run well, instead of like everyone ponning orientation. heh heh! Okay pple, help me do that kevan thing yea? i know everyone has it, but i think it's time for me to have "self-evaluation". =)) see ya'll ard!

http://kevan.org/johari?name=zaaa

2006-02-22T15:07:00.000+08:00

quick update!

Laz Monday
went to meet ** at pizza hutt! woohoo didnt even know they had student's meal, which made the meal much cheaper, sincce ** was giving me a treat. hHAHA we had a heart to heart talk, okay not exactly lah..but more or less. walked here walked there, looking for v'day pressies, the whole afternoonnnn..!

Tuesday
V'day! out with wenna and aaron. she came to my place to play with hair straightener and curler. heh heh met aaron (who was late) at bugis to get the tickets for FEARLESS. i'm never gonna watch NC16 kung fu fighting show EVER again..so gross pls. Went to eat sakae b4 the show, walked ard, took photos. HAHA didn't do anything much after the show, went downto town for a while, playedd our favourite game at the arcade! HAHA

Okay there's nothing much about wed and thurs cos it was just the normal timetable whereas mon and tues were off days.

Friday
missed school cos the ogls went down to sentosa to recee the place for second orientation! yep, made even more friends there. hAHA ran ard sentosa and even got "lost" at some wu lu place that we suspected was a perfect location for kidnappping. was a hot hot day but everything was good good..went back early with yi cheng and desmond. NELLLL all the way. hahahaha yi cheng and i were like stuck talking about the same person the whole trip?? HAHA all the crap!

Saturday
went to do an xray on my hip in the morning, so funny pls. Actually nothing was funny, just that i found the whole xray procedure interesting lah. Okay whatever...! went down to school after that for ogl camp. carried out WnW games..love my station pls. HAHA went out for dinner at like 9.30pm after that, stuck with the guys again cos the 3 gals wanted to eat instant noodles from 7-11....and i was like...?????alamak, i was hungry big time lah. haha

Sunday
went down to church by mrt, was too tired to wake up to go down with my family at 7.30am HAHA. grt sermon by dr seawerd.. about consistently reading the bible and keeping in close relationship with God. Hit me super hard lah! Yep, went home to study for chem test. went down to pasir ris to watch football match. JG vs riverlife! Won them 2-1.. but i think they're actually really strong, both on field and in prayer. Not sure if they prayed b4 the game, but i saw them praying after the match and questions started poppinnggg....anyway it was a good game! OHH and i had a super embarrassing fall. okay that was random.

Yep, that's about it! more to comee =)

2006-02-13T10:19:00.000+08:00

Wheeee~ results are out! Yea, really thank God for the very unexpected results. Pardon me pple for my very loud reaction when i got my results. HAHA yea, really happy bout it. Was having thoughts of going to SA, but after MUCH consideration, i decided to stay at MJC! Havent sent in the application yet, but my choices are alr quite set. I realize only my school and a few other JCs in S'pore have 2 days off to think about what choice we wanna make and stuff. Goodness, suaku me thought that all the J1s had holliday. HAHA

Results were out on friday. Had school in the morning, listening to the principal's talk (thankfully not that long), then there was this photo presentation of our one plus month in MJ.. so nice pls! Zhihan even wanted to start crying,he wanted my shoulder. Everything ended at ard 9? So i had ALOT of time to kill b4 meeting up with wenna. So my oh-so-nice clique stayed back to wait with me, together with a grp of VS pple- zhihan's frens.Wait wait wait until 10 plus when wenna came to MJ to meet me for brunch. HAHA. went to TM--her treat =) Ate breakfast meal at macs. She taught me how to eat hashbrowns with the syrup. Nice and gross at the same time. Walked ard TM and her favourite ISETAN before she decided to go down to parkway parade to meet **(in the end, we didnt even meet ** cos he was so engrossed in playing pool that he did not bother to even come out to meet us). Met zhihan and his VS pple again at BK, took joy ride to heartland mall to spray her hair, cabbed down to school with charis and her. We even had to call a cab cos we thot we were running late. Ide, we waited outside the emmanuel hall for like uber long.

PL did well =) like EXTREMELY well lah..seriously. I guess the teachers kinda gave up hope (even tho they continued teaching us with ALL THEIR HEARTS) on us after our mid year and prelim results. I mean, it was really bad. It was the kind of results that were never ever seen before in PL history, that's scary okay. So every sentence that Mrs Lee said, everyone started cheering. Haha, i'm proud to say that english (one of the worst results during prelims) achieved 40% distinctions and THESE ARE RESULTS NEVER SEEN BEFORE IN PL HISTORY. hahaha ng hui choo took over after that, telling us the procedures and all to apply for school, blah blah. Shd have gone to the washroom b4 that, cos my bladder was like gonna burst or something lah! So before it was my turn to get results, i ran to the washroom, everything done. kan chiong to get results lah.. i shall not elaborate on my rxn when i got my results. it's too retarded.

Yup, that's everything that happened within that short period of an hr or so. Heh.. Valentine's tmrw! going out with wenna and aaron, catching a movie or smth..u dun mind jus sitting ard and crapping. lol.. HAPPY VALENTINE'S EVERYONE! YOU KNOW I LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU SOOOO SOOOOOO MUCH! =)

2006-02-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

JUST ONE MORE DAY!!! i think that's the line u'll probably see on every 2005 o-lvl student's nick or blog or somewhere lah. so same goes for mine.. results are gonna be out tmrw at 2.30pm, so everyone is getting kan chiong and all. i cant say i'm not anxious AT ALL, but i think i'll start feeling the kan chiongness like an hr b4 we get our results. LOL MJ teachers have been telling us that there is really no point in worrying since the results are alr set and we cant change anything about it. so yar, they've psycho-ed me enough to stop thinking about the results.

Just really hope to stay in Mjc, i'm quite sure MJ is gonna be my first choice, if my pts allow it as well lah. nothing much happened these few days, except going to school and counting down to the day we get our results. sigh! i dunno what i'm gonna do after going back to MJ tmrw and before getting results. wen minn going to crash SR. maybe i'll go look for charis and wenna. lol

u made that night special for me =) thks for that 4 hrs of waiting outside school & telling me how you felt, though you alr knew what my stand was.

V'day's coming! =)))

2006-02-03T20:02:00.000+08:00

OooOOOoohhhHHH!! we're going into FEBRUARY!! So many things to update, so lil time! Shall just talk about the more impt events lah..

Chinese New year
Bought many last minute clothes from METRO. the best shop to get my kinda clothes.. lol! first day of chinese new year, went to visit relatives on my dad's side, wore the green cheena top with a black skirt. looks really niceeee! Went over to ivan chan's place and uncle willy's place as well. really fruitful day too =p

Second day went to relative's on my mum's side. fun fun fun. ego photo taking session with mayann and ele AGAIN. we shd just do it every year when we meet at KK's house. ho ho ho! nieces and nephew were dressed up so adorably!!! Went to Godma and Godpa's house for visitations too.. My dad and godpa were playing golf on xbox pls! was quite hilarious, cos i think my dad never touched the xbox at home before. Terence and huiling came over at night while we were watching the medallion. WOOHOO!

Third day, expressoul grp visitations!!! went to unty ju's place. tried to sing chinese songs, but like quite cannot make it. Went to joann and roy's place next. HER HOUSE IS GORGEOUS!!!!!!!! it's not very big but the interior is just.......perfect showroom! the guys were glued to the plasma watching football. Ffwd..last stop was unty monica's place where we had quite a cool dinner, some home made meat stuff. hahaha yea really enjoyed myself at all the houses. Our objective which i felt was really impt and meaningful was that we were not going to these pple's houses just for the sake of getting our ang bao's and be done with it. Our purpose of going there was to bless the family with like just a simple verse and a prayer. Really simple but meaningful =)

Sat ( 4/2)..went with tertiary cell to do visitations again. wuz kinda tired actually cos haven been sleeping properly the last few nights and all. wore the wrong kinda skirt, nearly had free show everywhere i went =( so embarrassing pls. Oh well.... ended at uncle cheng wahs place with a good dinner. left early with lemuel, ivan and joel to take train home.

Enough of CNY, school has been good. Actually i dunno if i wanna continue with Chem after the first 3 mths, cant seem to actually cope with it now. Oh well, shall see when results come out THIS WEEK!! Back to school, getting to know my other classmates better know. It's really good =) Cedric and Ben are not that scary as i perceived them to be, in fact they're full of nonsense, especially Cedric. Irritating at times, but oh well, that's them. haha. gonna be planning game for WnW with siau ling and ben. woohoo, we came up with a game called "Splish Splash from Upstaris". lol they came up with a stoopid guy's name for me called Ze or Jer or whatever.

Road race was pathetic. didnt run competitive in the end, and ended up WALKING an entire round of bedok reservoir. super waste of time. i did see rachel lian canoeing though. hahaha but i guess it was though that walk ard the reservoir that i got to know the rest of the class better. hahhaa yup too many things to blog about liaos. gtg sleep nowww. results coming out somewhere this week, its gonna be a whole week of torture if it comes out on friday. haha more updates coming soonnnn!!

2006-01-25T19:12:00.000+08:00

It's another mid week post. This week has been and is going to continue to be quite a hectic week. Firstly, i got accepted to be an OGL for the next orientation. OK, nearly everyone who went for interview got in so no big. Had our first meeting ytd, planned games and stuff, got to know more pple from my level. There's gonna be our second meeting tmr, to TRY out the games and all, gonna be so exciting!

Went for choir prac after the ogl meeting. The most embarrassing thing happened to me pls! Cos it was alr 7pm when i got therre (Practice starts at 5.30 and ends at 8), so everyone alr knew what sectoin they were in, except me ): so i had to audition. and the audition in the choir room where all the tenors and basses were (sops and altos were outside). was so gross lah!! like za0-siad the whole way, and i bet the guy was thinking: who put her into choir?? Anyway......... i'm in alto 1 lah.

There's gonna be a performance in May alr, so we learnt some weird song ytd. maybe becos i'm singing a really monotoned part, so it sounds weird. Oh well, so difficult to read the notes AND words at the same time lah! And hearing the tenor and bass sing solo is really cute. lol

Missed choir tdy though, had to go back to the secondary school to help out with their choir. Not that i'm teaching them to sing, (lol!) was standing in as a pianist for someone else. Everyone thought i looked different when i went back, didnt see many teachers ard and didnt bother to go find them also lah. Met up with mel png and wanyi but cldnt talk much cos i was so kan chionged to sight read the score for choir. So played for choir until 5 then went back to find my 2 nasty juniors and crapped with them. lols

Tmr's gonna be another long day. the ogl meeting starts at five plus and i end school at 1.45pm. lols, probably gonna do the GP project with my grp. Oh, and i realise i haven actually did any new yrs resolutions. So anyway i got one now.i hafta learn to be more gentle in class, stop fighting with the guys, and not step on chairs in the LT. haha, i'm so not gonna get used to being in a co-ed school ):

So you think that after all this while, you can just treat me like a rag doll? when you're 'in no mood" to msg me, i'm supposed to be just A-OKAY with that? and when u're "in the mood", i'm supposed to always be replying you? Come on, what exactly do you take me for?

2006-01-19T16:51:00.000+08:00

The week is coming to an end once again!! No lah, it's only MID week. still 3 more dayss! Time really seems to pass really fast in lectures. So far i haven felt that any day has been extremely long in this 3 weeks. Thank God lah. Lol!Oh btw people, i'm in CHOIR. Pls DO NOT ask me why i'm joining this cca that is like so extremely foreign to me. Come on, there's a guy who was frm athletics in his secondary school who joined choir pls.

Yea, anyway since choir is one of the niche ccas in MJ, shall just try try for the next few weeks then see how it goes. Yea, there was the choir orientation thing ytd. Had games and all. ended at ard 7? Ha! and guess what.. choir pracs are on tues and wed. And it starts at 5.30pm and ends at like 8 on tues!! Goodness..and right now i dont even know what i'm gonna sing. Alto or sop. maybe bass lah. HAHA

Tutorials are catching up. Been staying back in school nearly the whole of this week and the last to do tutorials with khad, zhihan and mereith. School is quite condusive lah, there's our fav bench at the atrium if we wanna study and laugh at the same time. or there's the library if we wanna be really serioius and do our work. LOL they're really nice pple :) Oh oh! khad and zhihan REALLY nice cos they wait for my bus with me everyday!! yea, cos i'm going in a different direction from them, so they nicely wait for me first. hahahhaa

Yep, that's about my week so far. nothing much except school school school. Yea, seems like all my entries are based on school life now. LOL wait for the weekend to come then i'll have more to say hopefully. Ciao~

2006-01-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

Tutorials are like kinda mad!! I'm so gonna be well-prepared for the next few weeks to come, i BADLY need to catch up with chemistry!! supposed to get the sec school pure cham book frm Gordon tdy, but he didnt come to church. Another week!! Yea, anyway we've gotten our class allocations and my whole OG (except 2) are in the same class! bliss~ we haven gotten the chance to meet our civics tutor though, he's busy serving the nation. LOL

Went to Tampines mall on sat to entertain wenna cos she's working there. Got to know her stead, zuo ping, and some guy called aaron. Talked to her for like 2 hrs before heading down to white sands to meet my OG for bbq! went to buy more stuff like the charcoal! lol and now they know my pin no. cos i paid for the stuff first. scumbags! now i have to think of another pin and change it. Was really windy when we reached there, but the guys still managed to set up the fire. thks to xuan wei's really power method. haha very few of us were there tho. mainly khad, mereith, zhihan, xuanwei, john and myself. Evelyn left at 7.30??? chao early lah! she hardly even ate. Been a long time sincce i went to the beach and the weather was just so perfect =D Had the sudden urge to just walk down to the sand and close to the sea, to just thank God for all the wonderful things he's done in my life so far.

Walked alone for a while before john came down to join me :) Sea water was quite an off colour though. Played with the sand and wrote "vega 8 was here!". Haha super childish but who cares lah, it looked nice. Mereith wrote an even bigger next to mine, but it was too big to capture. LOL the photo doesn't have the words "was here" cos i only wrote them after taking the photo. haha

Yep, 6 of us played really weird games expecially the guess number game. I kana forfeit thrice pls!! Our forfeits were really retarded, nearly all involved grabbing the attention of others. Went down to the beach with Khad a while later and talked about alot of stuff . Lols love her loads but i hope she stays in MJ!! So many of them wanna transfer out of Mj after first 3 mths cos they're quite sure they'll do better for O's. For me, i think i'll stay here. :)

Had AOK tdy, wasnt really in the mood. was kinda sad and shocked over the sudden death of Alvin. Though i dun really know him, but i've met him a few times. Sigh, sometimes we dun even know what can happen in the next minute of our life. I mean, plus he's so young! Gawd, i still feel sad. Can't imagine how grief his family would be. Treasure your lives people! and treasure those around you!!

i guess what i said to you shdn't have been said. perhaps i was too rash, but i dun wanna fall into something that i cant get out from. e short time spent with you ytd did change my opinion of you, and perhaps i know not of my emotions. I dun wanna assume anything right now, it's jus been 2 weeks...

2006-01-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

the weather is making everyone sleepy in school. Yea, even I fell asleep pls. Not during lectures lah, during our ULTRA long break of 3 hrs. We've been having like really weird intervals, like 2-3 hrs before the next lesson. Like today, we had 2 talks, then 3 hr break, then 4 lectures in a row. Yea, lit was cancelled tho there was no particular reason for it. Everyone was sitting in the LT and we waited for 15 mins for the teacher, but she din come in, so we went off.Lol

The week's coming to an end so quickly!! i really think going to lectures makes time pass damn fast! so far, i haven gone to one lecture, and feel like it's taking forever to end. Yea, so i guess that's a good sign. The weather's freaking cold and i cant type properly. LOL tata!

2006-01-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

Yea, here i am again.weets! Had lectures tdy, covered all my subjects. Math, Econs, Chem and sub-lit. Econs is like kinda weird, cos everyone doesn't understand everything. It's either that or the teacher really hasn't started teaching a thing. Haha, and she has this really weird accent that is half Brit and half Singlish. And she walks like King kOng, khadijah and i jus cldn't stop staring at her every movement.

Okay, so it really feels damn weird to be in a lecture theatre..especially during Chem!! They assigned our OGs to sit together and my OG was placed right at the back corner of the WHOLE LT. we cldn't even see the teacher's head pls. luckily the screen is BIG. Yea, the scary part is that the other teachers were walking ard while the lecturer was speaking. So also cannot fall asleep even tho we were right at the back. But Joel is damn power lah! he jus nods his head away like nobody's bizness. few of the other guys in my row were nodding away too. LOL

we had like a lil more than 2 hrs break before our next lesson, so khadijah and i were slacking with the guys cos the gals frm our OG suddenly disappeared to nowhere. Yea, got to know more guys...from...victoria sec! the whole of MJ is infested with them pls. everywhere u turn, u see a victorian, tkgs or tkss. Got to know a few gals frm TkGS too, they're really really crappy!! Oh oh,the library actually rents dvds like Meet the Fockers. Super cool! currently cant borrow cos we're not registered yet. HAHA first day of lectures wasnt too bad after all :)

we have to buy a graphic calculator that costs $175.00!! power pls!!

2006-01-08T15:49:00.000+08:00

First week of orientation is over!! and i'm still surviving, lessons start tmr!!! OH ya! my house won overall champs! is that cool or what pls!

Wed
CSI:Meridian! went ard school looking for clues on some mystery death of a person called Zen, really felt like the real CSI. but i think mainly, they wanted us to explore the various parts of the school lah. LOL kept running and running and running. i need to run more! super unfit sia!!! hmm..we learnt the mass dance and couple dance on this day i think. cant really rmb when but who cares lah. i was partnered with merrith for couple dance, damn hilarious lah. we kept doing everything wrongly pls and i jus jept laughin like mad. mass dance was really fun, especially since i was standing with khadijah and we were dancing like crazy pple lah.

Thurs
Sentosa!! NYJC was there too, met kat only, dunno what happened to the rest of the PL lites frm NY. haha sentosa was like infested with both our schools, and stations were EVERYWHERE. Another day of running and running and running. i think we ran more than 2.4 km lah.. wuz really enjoyable tho it rained and had sunshine at the same time. dunno what position we came in, but o well, the process was fun! wenta eat with my OG at harbourfront b4 going home..alone. the rest changed train at outram station. sadded pls! so lonely!! LOL

Fri
Wet games! it rained again! but since we were alr wet, we didnt really bother lah. Games at the stations were really really funny!! we were like competing agst our own grp memberS?? really weird.. but aiya in the end we did all the forfeits together! haha. Went to white sands for lunch, then went back to rehearse OH skit. like 8 OGs=1 OH. so it was kinda big.. my grp and another were the VEGAN choir. okay, i jus came up with that. hahaa sounds nice what. we produced the very retarded and slow-moving sound effects for our haunted mansion, adapted from some show: fact or fiction. Had campfire at night, we won the skit!! Haha we were the last grp to perform pls. Did alot of dances after the skits, everyone was so so high!! Yea, ended at ard 10 plus, wuz supposed to go out for dinner or something but we were like all so soooo tired! haha
oh oh! my grp was supposed to help the ODAC clean up the campfire stuff, so they asked us to wash the zinc sheets...using the fire hosereel! SO FUN PLS!! i was like so act pro lah, took the hosereel and turn here turn there, the water was like going EVERYWHERE, but i still managed to wash up the stuff lah. HAHA that was really really FUN!!! =D

Sat
was the loyal hanbeller and went back to PL for CCA fair.feels so good to be back tho i did go back oncce or twice during the hols for one reason or another. Had to leave with yunlu and the rest to go buy the food for class bbq later in the evening. went down to kovan and we bought our stuff frm cold storage. rich kids eh? wrong, the class treasurer (me!) is rich lah, i think we still have leftover..haha thats why we're gonna have class gathering at mr low's hse on fri!! Yayness cant wait man! hopefully wenna and wenminn can take leave again?? LOL we made Mr Low dance at the beach ytd, really hilaroius. we danced to Don't Cha frm my phone so it was like kinda soft?? lol but had loads of fun lah! hmm... we played with sparkles!! havent touched the in a gazillion yearss!! and they had the shooting sound coming out when it's lighted. So cute pls!! Pris and i tried to start the fire for bbq at like 5 plus. it quite succeeded but it died off prob becos of the rain and wind. HAHA excuses lah.. we're jus not pro enuff. come on, we didn't even have a lighter lah! in the end, we asked the guy frm the neighbour pit to help us start fire. HAHA he's damn pro lah! he had the fire going in like 15 mins?? HAHAHAHA

Sun
Took train to church cos i was too tired to go with my family early in the morning and reach church at 7.30 haha. met Gordon at farrer park, purely coincidental. He walked in the rain pls, even tho he had an umbrella. made me look like such an idiot. Played the egg game during expressoul, every group's egg broke!! LOL! joann didn't have to give presents to anyone after all. HAHA came home with ivan..slept for like 2 hrs before the rest of the family came home and i woke up. yea so here i am.

My whole weeks activities! HAHAlooking forward to lectures and meeting my class on thurs! Might go down to wisma and TM to visit wm and wenna on tues since its a public holiday and they're still working :( sad case pls. yea, okay till next time. TATA~

2006-01-03T15:36:00.000+08:00

School ended early today. i think it's the earliest that can happen in a JC..1.30pm. it was like super duper early pls. Had loads of fun during orientation, i was actually groupless in the early part during assembly cos i din attend the orientation on the 28th last dec. oh well, din really miss out on anything. jus that i forgot to bring pe attire. hahaa in the borrowed xinyi's cos her grp wasn't gonna change. yea, weather was good good. learned like 4 cheers, played games and mass dance! so cool pls, made new friend. not sure how to spell her name, so i shant spell it for now. haha we're the a lil more enthu pple in my grp, the gals are kinda quiet but i'm sure they'll lighten up after orientation lah.

okay, so the guys are not that scary after all. new fren and i found loner joel and made friends with him. actually more like he heard us saying that he was so alonely that's why he turned and introduced himself. haha loser us. new fren and i kana spammed twice today thinking joel and merrith were malays. and merrith was like "my name is mohammad" . yea yea~ OOhhh. my house name is VEGA!!! we're like divided into 8 grps in vega, so i'm in vega 8. and when u join all 8 grps together, it's really enthu! hahahhaaha..doing mass dance really reminded me about the christmas dance, where we did JJC's mass dance, taught by eunice. actions are not that similar, but certain parts still the same lah.ahh..memories. HAHA oh yes! met my primary school pervert friend in MJ! PAMELA!! it's like so interesting lah.. hahahhaha

we're actually going to sentosa for orientation on thurs. woohoooo! Must pray real hard it doesn't rain man! yea, i'm off now! get ready to hear more..err.. exciting stuff! =D

some really cool cars i saw in malaysia.

2006-01-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

fooling ard during rehearsel =D

grp pic with our poses. colours really nice eh?
this wuz SUPPOSED to be a best friends photo. INTRRUDER!! haha
kai and me. i look crossed eye
big twin, ele and i doing really weird poses

2006-01-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

spent the day packing my room and throwing a whole load of rubbish. i know these stuff was supposed to be thrown during the holidays but i was busy slacking and wasting my time doing.... nothing. at least i did pack my books away during the hols. haha

found alot of junnk stuff that i threw away, and also found alot of LOST items. read thru like a whole load of past years christmas and birthday cards. so nice pls =D yea, so i took an extra long time because i kinda side tracked a little. oh, i editted the previous entry cos it actually slipped my mind that i went out with my two best friends from school. HAHA yeah so do them some justice lor. so read the previous entry again. and we toook very weird photo while jalaning along orchard.

school starts tmrrr!!

2006-01-02T10:50:00.000+08:00

OOHhh!! the new yr is here! and guess what my greatest worry is currently? having too choose btw arts and science course. AHHH!!! like HUGE decision pls! it's so scary, i think i'll call all my tuition teachers tmr or maybe even Mr Low. Oh man, the feeling like so totally sucks and i have to make my choice on tues when school starts. is that bad or what? bad.

My countdown this year was pathetic. Should have planned something with wen minn instead. Went out with her and wenna in the afternoon, watched family stone. so touching! yea, i didn't realize what the SICKNESS was until they the both of them explained it to me TWICE after the show. wm wanted to crash another theatre, but being law abidding citizens, wenna and i pulled her out. HAHA. walked ard, and crapped ALOT. yea, was really enjoyable. So the afternoon part was fun, and hopefully it wun be our last outing out together!!!

went down to church, the thanksgiving part was goody and fun. but the last half hr or so for 2005 was like SO FREAKING DEAD!!! and to think i actually begged terence and huiling to stay for countdown with me so that i cld go home with them after that. My mind was a lil mad at that time i think. Seriously, who counts down while staring at sweaty boys play soccer. so interesting pls. Sigh!

Anw, so we reached home at like 12.30am cos we cabbed home straight away after saying happy new year. cldn't really sleep until about one plus or two. This morning played for service and it was freezing cold!! like BIG time! and i was wearing sleevless today. tell me about it man. Nearly all the youths stayed back to help out at pwrhouse for their games day. left marc, justus, germs and me to slack. in the end, justus marc and i went to kick ball. so funny. i learnt how to stop a balll pls. so fascinating, and also some curl ball thing. oh welll, shall play again when there is no one playing lah. hahahhaa

gonna start school on tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea, afraid of not being able to fit in.. afraid of making friends.. afraid of lectures.. afraid of choosing cca. God, help me!!!!!! this feels worse than going to sec school becos there's gonna be GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea, 10 yrs in PL has so taught me to become a nun =D