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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

GP paper ytd wasn't too bad, but the topic i chose seemed to have been done by everyone too. Hahaha quite worrying but yea, just hope i can pass lah. Paper 2 was so-so, summary was like yuck and passage B was difficult to understand.

Had learning journey to HARBOURFRONT. Like, what kind of NE thing can we learn from there? Initial plan was to go to Arab Street, then i guess the weather kinda turned us off, so hot! So mr tan agreed that we go to harbourfront instead. Had our lunch at the food joint, sat there and listened to mr tan's army days stories. Hahaha quite interesting lah. Headed down to Shaw Centre to catch X-men III: The Last Stand with the rest of the J1 cohort. FABULOUS! Double thumbs up man! Although my all-time favourite (Cyclops) died, the show was still pretty much good without him. Luckily his death was a simple one, unlike the professors', where he exploded or smth. I would have screamed if that happened to Cyclops. Hahah my obsession. Crazy classmates were throwing popcorns ard, and they had nearly a tub-full of popcorns left after the show. Ashikin ate too much, she felt like vomiting. Lol!

Went to Suntec with some of them. I wanna go back to the Fountain of Wealth! Not that i wanna get lucky or anything, but the ambience is really nice at night. Sat there and stared at the laser stuff for a while, walked out, felt kinda tired so decided to go back. Trained home with yi cheng, was so drowsy on the train man.

One enjoyable day with S415! As small as we may be, but the spirit is as strong. Gonna have lessons this whole week. Whoo! Mid-yrs are coming alrr! Study study study! I gotta concentrate man. Keep having the tendency for my mind to start drifiting and thinking of other stuff during lectures and when i'm doing my hmwk. Hahaha. FOCUS!

If you ask me again, i'll say, yea, i do =)

lizzy's memories at 7:47 PM

Friday, May 26, 2006

Second post of the day! See how "bo liao" i can get on a school holiday. Anyway, i DID go down for a swim. 4 laps and i got bored of it, not becos i had no strength okay! n it's not nice to swim in a bikini, uncomfortable lah. My main purpose going down was to tan!! I hope i accomplished, there's not much of a difference though. lol. The sun was goood. Read newsweek for a while b4 putting a towel over my head. Before i knew it, i was asleep.Woke up feeling like my head was stuck in a suana or smth.

Was thinking of some many things while swimming, the time when WM,wenna and i went to MJ's open house together, to the time i stepped into MJ for orientation, then lessons. Half a year is ending, time is literally flying past. May is ending, june is coming. This time last year, chinese O's madness! It was during this week that i was going for chinese tuition everyday at unty jessi's house, even wanted to stay over pls. It was chinese all the way! Thinking back, i miss chinese tuition sooooo much! Note: i do not miss CHINESE, i miss the tuition. Hahaha chinese is such a dread now, i dun look forward to it like i used to. Lol and during this time, i was preparing the list of names for my sweet sixteenth. Now, moving on to 17. AND I'VE GOT A SCH WORKSHOP ON MY BIRTHDAY. not again!! Last yr, had to go on some learning journey to jurong island when i was having a bbq party in the evening. Timing was super bad but everything turned out fine. Looks like this year cant even plan for anything cos i got no idea of the timing and stuff of the workshop.

Alrightys, shall be a nice daughter and help my mum with dinner =p

I guess i'm not giving up or letting go of anything. at least for now.

lizzy's memories at 5:20 PM

Didn't have much time to blog this week, came home nearly after 7 everyday. Shdn't i be used to this JC timetable already? Hahaha maybe i just wasnt in the mood to blog. Everything's been going quite well since the last entry. Hmm, i'll leave the part about school work out.

my accomplishment this week was doing up the House notice board. BIG THANKS TO JUN KAI! for staying back with me on tuesday to do un-accompished stuff. Even though it was so freaking disorganised, and the fact that you had no obligations to help me, ur moral support means alot! Wednesday: had to go for some choir meeting (oh, did i mention, i'm ASL for alto. alamakkk..me?) then headed down to do up the notice board. ANOTHER SHOUT OF THANKS TO JOY & ETHELYN who stayed to do whatever they could b4 leaving for their own commitments. and of course to KENNETH & GORDON! for staying back all the way from the start to the end, to finish up what needed to be done. I couldn't have done it without all of you. definitely not a one man's job especially for someone who knows nuts bout ART.

The whole cohort went down to Jalan Besar Stadium ytd to support MJC soccer in the shodown btw them and VJC, it was an extremely close fight, but ultimately VJ claimed back their title (MJ won last yr..Hahaha). The atmosphere was there, the meridian spirit was there. Everyone stayed back to continue cheering for the guys despite the loss, doing the medley over and over again. Principal declared friday (tdy) a holiday at the stadium itself. It was a holiday not only to celebrate the soccer's team title as second. but also for the other CCAs that did well for their competitions. So yea, got a break tdy =)

I'm looking out of the window, contemplating if i shd go down and swim. The sun is out, there's no one in the pool, so temptingg! But i'm lazy....... HAHAHA i think i haven gone down to swim in AGES. maybe since the beginning of this yr, perhaps. i'll think about it =p

Thoughts-out-loud:
When the bitching and gossiping begins, u really dunno who u can trust. It's different in this environment, i hate to say. You look ard, it seems like everyone's wearing a mask, telling you things you wanna hear, telling others what they wanna hear about u. I wanna be able to trust you, i know i alr do, but the thing is..do you trust me? I wanna be different, i wanna be treated special.

lizzy's memories at 10:50 AM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

BIG WALK TODAY! woke up at like 5.30 am??!! that was such a turn-off, so earlly pls. Trained to kallang with gordon and we stoned there for about half an hour, cos everyone arrived much later than the expected time. Alamaks, next time we shall just be late with everyone else. Walked to the stadium after everyone arrived, and sat there to talk talk before moving off to the starting point to start. So everyone was so excited upon reaching the 1km mark. Lol, even stopped to take pics? haha triton was rather quiet tdy, i guess everyone was rather tired, including myself.

Anyway, we didnt complete the 10km, but finished 5? Haha we stopped at the 5km mark and went into suntec to sit ard like some illegal immigrants and later had "lunch" at BK. the houses went different ways after that. We went walking around Suntec, both towers! Yea, i was so tired and my mood was like crap. Didn't wanna be such a spoil sport so walked ard with the 4 of them, visiting carrefour, a few shops here and there. Enjoyable but would have been better if i wasnt so tired!

Off to do the notice board stuff and gotta run down to popular later on to get markers! waste time siaa, go there just to get them. lOl lazy...!!

Maybe the topic just shdn't be brought up. it complicates things.

lizzy's memories at 6:10 PM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Met up with the jg tertiary cell ytd at marina bay for dinner. It was good good, just that i kinda regretted going there in my school uniform. Had to make sure that i didnt get any stains from the sizzling "bbq" thing. Haha felt as though i was eating meat the whole night? like meat allll the way. Had a great time fellowshipping as well. Tabled with bimin, vincent, gordon, ivan and samuel. the live prawns ( which we didnt cook) were quite fascinating and so were our all time favourite: man tous! But compared to the last time when i went there with 4B2, the man tou's this time were kind HUGE and rock-hard? haha

Gonna be home all day tdy. Loads of hmwk to finish and i've got the TRITON board to "decorate"!! N the teachers wanna check the board during mid-week =( Now, the only problem is that i didnt measure the length of the board, so how to prepare? go by estimation? sigh sigh!! I can do it! think positively.

Oh yes! I'm probably gonna get a gold for my Napfa! At least i hope so! Dun really know what are the criteria to get a Gold, but here are my results!
2.4km-->A
SBJ-->C (short of one cm to get a B..sad huh!)
Incline Pull-Ups-->C
Sit-ups-->A
Shuttle Run-->A
Sit&Reach-->C
SO, in all 24 pts. Is that a Gold? hahaha i nearly got a D for sit-and-reach. That's my worst station. Had to do that stn again after everything to try getting a C, and i did it! thks to ashikin's words of encouragement "come on! you kept ur nails for this stn right?! use them now!!" Hahah like wow! I cant stretch for nuts. Did until 41cm and stopped, at least i got a C.

Couldn't sleep the whole night. was feeling so uncomfortable. In fact, i was feeling kinda queasy when i was sitting on the bed with the laptop. dunno if it had to do with the food i ate, but doesn't seem like it. Was thinking bout some stuff the whole night, no matter how hard i tried to sleep, it didnt help. How can i not be confused after all that you told me? unexpected decision. Argh! I really didnt expect things to turn out this way. it made me cry cos i didnt know what to feel.

lizzy's memories at 8:27 AM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

I guess I finally decided to just let everything go. Met up with clovis tdy, super unexpected turn out, but I’m glad we decided to just walk ard compass point. He was supposed to be the one depressed and I was supposed to help him overcome his problem but halfway thru, the opposite happened. Hahaha guess I told him majority of the things that I was feeling, so many things to the extent that I suddenly realize whatever I was doing for you was mere stupidity. Why was I making myself stoop down to such a low level. I never knew I was doing all these things until I started talking to clovis. Perhaps he was telling me true opinion from a guy’s view. So yea. It’s off my chest!!

You’re out of my life. Why was I living these few mths like a walking zombie, when I got nothing back in return. Why did I make myself think you meant so much to me, when to you, I was merely a friend.

so yea. Clovis was outside MJ waiting for me to end school tdy. His love life is hmm..rather interesting! Was great catching up after Music lessons at TKGS ended after the O’s. Been some time since I last saw him, pretty much the same lahh..heh it’s either he shrank or I grew taller. Ho ho ho, or maybe his pants are just baggy or something. I went home feeling much better, having a much clearer opinion of all the stupid things I was doing.

I’m not sure if I’m gonna get over you totally. Everything happening’s too fast. Hmm, time, take control.

Napfa 5 items tmrw!! Woo hoo, gonna be so exciting. Darn, I wanna do more pull-ups, I wanna jump further, I wanna stretch further!!!! Going down to marina south to meet the tertiary cell for dinner. Hehe, exciting! Deciding if I shd stay in school and do as much hmwk as I can, then go down to meet them directly from pasir ris. Or if I shd go home, change out of uniform (which also means I’ll probably not doing anything if I come home) then go down to meet them. I think I’ll just stay in school, I’ll bathe during recess =p

Loads of hmwk waiting for me =)

P.s did i mention. you probably dun even know this post and all the past posts were about you. what an irony.

lizzy's memories at 8:13 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Mother's day on sunday. Kor and ele prepared dinner for mum..me? Not inclined in that area lah..i helped to wash up after everything! Thank goodness we have a dishwasher so i only had to wash up the oily pans and clean up the stove and stuff. At least i played my part right! Lol..

Hmm..SPA went quite okay on monday. At least i knew what to put into the burette (haha!) without having to ask xinyun (my lab partner!). But i answered some of the questions wronglyy and they were the most impt man questions.sigh sigh!! But other than that..it was relatively okay lahh =p

2.4km run tdy!! It was baddd. Okay wait wait..must talk bout the good things first. firstly, the weather was quite good, not exactly what i was hoping for but at least it wasnt THAT hot. Relatively okay. secondly, my timing was below 14mins! nearly crossed the timing (phew!), so yea that entitled me my first A!! at least for this time's NAPFA. Past few yrs, i think the only A i can get is for sit-ups. like duh! who cant do that. =p SO..5 items is gonna be on friday. i need major help for sit-and-reach and for incline pull-ups as well!! suck at this two..big time!! Anyway, the bad part was i actually had to stop and walk for a while during the run. had stiches during 2nd or 3rd round and it didnt go away at all..so i had to stop to walk for about 50m about three times before running again. kinda sad huh! oh well, managed to attain what i wanted to who cares about the bad part. HAHA

choir elections tdy. some speeches were..rather interesting. thk goodness i had the chance to "take my revenge". Haha shd have set my question more difficult for that person durin Q&A. Lol i'm kidding lah..i'm so nice pls. Yup, so handed in our votes and stuff, ended choir earlier than usual. duh~ then there's gonna be some investiture (is that how u spell it?) tmr..sianess! hope it doesnt last too long. haha

chinese test on thursday! doesnt sound easy at all =( i shall just "try my best". Hahaha shall try reading up before the test lah. For now, some sleep is needed after the run! oh..did i mention i bathed in sch today. Hahaha! first timer lah..the feeling is so shiok after all the sweat from PE. woohoo!Tata!

lizzy's memories at 10:21 PM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

hmm. there's nothing much to blog about actually, but i'm using a "unused" laptop in the house, so finding something to do. My parents are watching some korean seriel called " da chang jin"? I think it's on channel u every week night, but my dad bought the whole series from shanghai..haha my mum was so happy pls. She wun need to stay up to watch anymore. Lols..

Sigh! got a GP essay to do later.. hopefully i can still rmb all the points i thought about. Came back frm church about 2 hrs ago, and i'm still sitting ard watching the series. Billy Elliot spoke at service today..all about having the faith to trust and believe. Was really good. Hmm, had quite an interesting time during expressoul grp, doing up mother's day card. Hehehe had yong tau fu for lunch after that. Wasnt too bad since we haven had lunch there for a few weeks. Hopefully the following week we can find a better place to have lunch, quite sian of the food ard that area.

Wun be going to church next week, thanks to the 10 km big walk thing we're gonna have!! Man, who wants to walk 10 km siaaaa. Hahaha, time for exercise lah. Speaking of that, Napfa 2.4km is on tuesday!!Crap.. 1) weather must be nice 2) no cramps/stitches halfway! 3)shoelace doesnt untie while i'm running With all these, i SHD be able to get an A for this. HAHA may be a B wouldn't be too bad lah, but I WANT MY A! i trained hard for it okay..hehe!

SPA exam tmrw! Need to revise or i'll forget everything man. And there's a whole week of chinese exam to think about. SIAN AH! okay, must think positively..think positively! That's been quite drilled into my head..haha by you-know-who! I'm going back to watch "da chang jin" then essay time!

Sometimes i wanna know what you're thinking, but when i think again, maybe i'd rather not.. enjoying the little things we're doing together now. So yea, perhaps it's better for things to just remain this way. =) thks for always being there to hear me out, u know u're appreciated, my friend

lizzy's memories at 2:44 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

So we did go down to pulau ubin tdy!suaku me was there for the first time pls..took a super old looking boat from changi village and there we were. Had such a homely feel to that place, so many shops to rent bikes from! Haha that was the fascinating part, deciding which shop to rent the bikes from. One shop read "Whole day--$2..onwards" All of us were tricked pls. $2 for the whole day was rather impossible. So it was $8 bucks for our bikes. Casper (lao da!), may ann, andrew, ele and me got our bikes and we were off! The vans that drive just next to u while you're on the bike is freaking scary man!! It was like sooo near to us lah.. Weather was pretty good, until the part where we were going back, then it started to get cloudy and started drizzling.

Yep, so it was a fulfilling trip. Never been out with my cousins, much lest meet up with them or anything. Kinda tired after the cycling though..and cycling uphill is no fun!! makes my legs ache..haha!! and i'm always the slowest when we go down-slope?! the 4 of them will just zoom past me while i'm like going down, holding the brakes??Hahaha i'm scared =x

there we are..the 5 of us =)

the 3 hot babes! HAHA

lizzy's memories at 10:36 PM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Barry Manilow Lyrics - I Write the Songs
I’ve been alive forever,
And I wrote the very first song.
I put the words and the melodies together,
I am music,
And I write the songs.

I write the songs that make the whole world sing.
I write the songs of love and special thing s.
I write the songs that make the young girls cry.
I write the songs, I write the songs.

My home lies deep within you,
And I’ve got my own place in your sole.
Now, when I look out through your eyes,
I’m you’g again, even though I’m very old.

Chorus

Oh my music makes you dance
And gives your spirit to take a chance,
And I wrote some rock ’n’ roll so you can move.
Music fills your heart,
Well, that’s a real fine place to start.
It’s from me it’s for you,
It’s from you, it’s from me,
It’s a world wide symphony.

Chorus

I am music, and I write the songs.

Beautiful song isnt? Heard it on the the Oprah Winfrey Show, and they had Barry Manilow as some special guest. Hahaha that guy is a legend lah, he's been in the industry for nearly his whole life, and yet still sooooo successful, appealing to all the OLD and YOUNG women/men out there.

So..this week passed ultra fast (what's new!) and i must say, choir concert was a success! we managed to reach 100% sale of tickets in one week! so yea, first official MJC choir performance.. wasnt as nerve-wrecking as i thought it would be! First person i saw when i stepped on stage-- KEE WEN MINN. nearly bursted out laughing when i saw her..lol! so glad she came =) my favourite song--SWEET HONEY-SUCKING BEES! i know the title is kinda ridiculous, but the song is niceee! Don't really know whats nice about it..but yea love it! The whole concert went on quite fine i guess, musical was good too! our "hald-jackets" fooled everyone eh! not bad not bad...

Went home straight after briefing and all, kinda tired lah..so didnt join the rest for dinner/supper. stoned home on the train with ur company =) it's all these little things that make me appreciate u soo much, but sometimes i wonder if you're feeling the same way. perhaps not. So yea, reached home at ard 11pm, unpacked, BATHED!, packed my stuff for the next day and drifted into lala land.

So that was ytd.

Back track to last saturday (before this saturday comes!).

Usual choir in the morning. Went to priscilla's house to watch the electionss! Hahaha rachel's family was there too. Waited for some time before the results started being announced. Uncle marcus is super funny lah!! He started taking out champagne when the opposition won the hougang area. We were like !!!! so well prepared huh!! Yea, watched for an hr plus, then my parents were like "tired lahh". so we left at ard 12 plus..and we were gonna have service the next day anyway. so yea. fun lah, never took much notice bout elections before, so this was pretty exciting.

Back to the present.

Will be going to palau ubin (most probably!) tmrw with the cousins! Woohoo! Cant wait to just chill out with them, get to know them better also la. So yup, gotta do all my hmwk tonight!! which is somewhere now? *toodles!

the little things you say and do =)

lizzy's memories at 6:20 PM

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Just got back from choir practice at SIGLAP..that's like far far away in east coast pls. We had full dress rehearsel, guess it went PRETTY well. hahaha, not really sure what are the expectations for choir, and what more, i havent ever been to a choir concert in my whole entire life before. Oh well, the concert will be next wednesday and somehow, i just got this sense of hapinesss in me? Thats probably becos once concert is over, HOPEFULLY, the practices will lessen too. It's getting so overwhelming. We're even having practices this saturday, a supposed PUBLIC holiday =( and i alr made plans to meet up with my PW grp, looks like all hafta change again.

Hmm, so today's house elections weren't that bad afterall. was pretty nervous bout it initially, then when it was getting nearer to my turn for speech, was pretty calm alr. haha! dun think i really spoke well though. Oh well..each time i run for this kinda thing, i tell God to take the lead and do what He wants best for me. If He doesn't want me to be in this committee. i dun wanna feel defeated or anything because I know He probably has better plans for me.." plans to prosper me, and not to harm me". So yea, if i get in..i'll do my best! =)

Oh, did i mention choir is on friday too? as well as next monday and tues? AHHH!!!! and there's econs test on mondayyy!!! Better start studying alr. SIGHH!! On a lighter note, i had quite a fun 2 mins running in the rain with a pathetic umbrella with xavier today. Hahaha we walked with the umbrella in front of us okay? Thks to xavier's ingenious idea..but it did help lah, our FACES DIDNT GET WET.

maybe i'm too demanding, expectating a little too much?

lizzy's memories at 8:18 PM